| Saturday, 14 April 2007 |
| what makes us survive... |
IZZIE: "She will come through this."
GEORGE: "You don't know that."
IZZIE: "She will come through this."
GEORGE: "People die."
IZZIE:
"I know people die. People die in front of us everyday. But I believe Meredith will survive this.
I believe, I believe, I... I believe in the good.
I believe that it's been a hell of a year and I believe that, in the face of overwhelming evidence to the contrary, that we will be okay.
I believe a lot of things. I believe that... I believe that Denny is always with me... and I believe that if I eat a tub of butter and no one sees, that the calories don't count. And I believe that surgeons who prefer staples over stitches are just lazy.
And I believe that you are a man that made a terrible mistake marrying Callie and I believe that because I'm your best friend I can tell you this and we can be okay.
I believe that even though you made this mistake you will be okay.
I believe we survive, George. I believe that believing we survive... is what makes us survive."
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Every single night, I read and revise what I'm supposed to do for the day, and then I panic.
I panic about lots of things: about not knowing enough; about forgetting what I had just revised, about forgetting what I revised yesterday, or the day before, or the previous week; about not knowing anything when the time comes for me to sit in that freezing cold hall and do those pages and pages of questions before me; about having a mental block or blank mind.
I panic. And because I hate it when I panic, I watch an episode of 'Grey's' every single night before I go to sleep. Nevermind that I am watching repeats of the episodes. It doesn't matter at all.
I still watch it to make me forget about my insecurities, I watch it to make me laugh and make me sad, I watch it to distract myself from the pain and fear of it all, I watch it because one day I hope to do something as amazing as separating a pair of conjoined twins or a humpty dumpty heart transplant.
Its no secret that I absolutely adore the characters of 'Grey's' because of their numerous character flaws. Everyone of them has something in which I can identify with.
Of course I have favourites, like Meredith and Addison and Bailey and Yang...
But last night, the one character that reached out and stole my heart, was Izzie.
"I believe that believing we survive... is what makes us survive."
Izzie is a tall, hot blond. Everyone knows that. And while her tendency to be overly involved with patients and her sometimes overly optimistic speeches and incessant worrying tends to irritate me, I love Izzie because of all the doctors in Seattle Grace, she is probably the only one who still believes as strongly as she does, in the good of everything.
Of the five interns, Izzie is the only one who believes in hope. Cristina believes in Science, Alex believes in Truth, George believes in Compassion, and Meredith... as much as she tries to deny it, she believes in Family.
But Izzie, she believes in just believing. She believes in, what is most important to me, Hope.
She believes. She believes, she has hope, she has an undying faith in the good. Which is something that most of us don't anymore, because somewhere or somehow, we have lost it.
To our fears, to our troubles, to our busy lives. And we end up in a state of stasis over it.
And as the crunch time approaches, as time runs out...
I think the most important thing to hold to your heart, is the belief that you'll do fine. Because believing that you'll defeat this, believing that you'll get over it, believing that you'll do well, is probably having half the battle won.
I believe, like Isobel Stevens, that believing we survive, makes us survive.
We will survive this. We will survive this, we will survive this, we will survive this.Labels: emo, grey's anatomy, soul |
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