Today's just one of the days where I really feel like CRAP for taking up my place in medical school, and subjecting myself to this much work, memory, studying and stress. Just when I felt like I was making progress in finishing the whole stack of notes on Infectious Diseases, I found a winzip file under my 'M2 Notes' folder that was unzipped. Thinking that it's very strange and discomforting to have an unzipped winzip file in my Notes folder, I decided to unzip it: lo and behold, out came 4 more sets of Infectious Disease notes, notes that I had conveniently forgotten about ages ago, and thus had not printed out (or studied) yet.
At that point in time, I just wanted to yell 'FUCK!' and just throw in the towel. For just that moment in time, I really felt like giving it up, freaking giving it all up and quit medical school and just stay home to rot. But then, the medical student in me promptly took over: I took a look at the clock on the wall, drew in a deep breath and proceeded to open the first file to start my reading.
Everytime I hear some fellow medical student complain and whine about how much stuff we have to learn; how hard they are forcing us to work, how little time for relaxing and fun we have; I have the urge to remind them that we chose this path ourselves, knowing full well what we were going to get ourselves into and that we have absolutely no right to complain. So I gave myself the exact same advise that I would give to another beleaguered medical student: stop the incessant whining, suck it all up and just slog on.
And please don't tell me that it isn't supposed to be easy, because that's just telling me what I already know.Labels: emo, meltdown, school |
