When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cry And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you
I've never felt this way before Everything that I do reminds me of you And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now
We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were, yeah All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah _________________________________
Right. Cheesy song, cheesy lyrics, but it works fine for me. That's the good thing about Avril Lavigne. She's no Genius song-writer, her lyrics are elementary and her songs are brainless. You don't have to look too deeply for hidden meanings and what-nots. You just put the record on and let your mind float along with the sheer cheesiness of the songs. Jolly good rollicking time.
Oh and don't ask me why I have sudden emo moments and mood swings. It just happens, especially when I'm very tired and a particular sad song comes to mind, then its *WHAM* and I'm hit by the emo bug for the rest of the day.
Anyway, Medicamp '07 has officially come to an end. (And thank god for that.) Was telling Sara that I am very sick of taking photos already. Thankfully, she felt that way too. She was telling me that every night she felt so tired just looking through the photos she took over the day, she seriously considered not taking more photos over the next few days. So reassuring. Its good to know that I wasn't the only one who felt like slacking and not take photos anymore. Now that my 'boss' feels that way too, I feel like I can slack without feeling overly guilty. Woo-hoo.
Now that Medicamp '07 has come to a close, I hope everyone can just go back to our pre-camp happiness and live in harmony with one another. Although I sincerely doubt that all the unhappiness that has happened will ever be completely swept under the carpet (I've come to learn that humans NEVER ever really forgive and forget), I hope that some effort would be made to maintain cordial ties with one another, despite all the crap that people may have experienced.
If there was anything worth noting from Medicamp, it would be the fact that the M1s this year are very exhibitionistic. (trust me, I have the photos to prove it) And surprisingly, I actually know at least 3 juniors who made it into Medicine. Wow, and here I was hoping that no one in M1 would know me. And that boys will always be boys, and that girls will always be girls. (Again, I have the photos to prove it) I shall see if I can post any photos here or not. After all, bulk of the better shots have to go to the CD that Jonk's creating, so yeah, we'll see.
I'm really quite tired from all the late nights and voyeurism photo-taking. Damn. I feel so old right now.
UPDATE @ 1118: I've come to a conclusion that exhaustion is the main key to all the tempers flaring during Medicamp (before, during and after). Or rather, it becomes the main trigger for igniting all the smothering tempers which are just raring to burst into flames and burn the house down. So you are stuck in a situation where everyone is on a very short leash and any small insignificant matter or disagreement just gets magnified and blown out of proportion. Accumulated anger just blows over. All safety controls and filters just lose their function. And explosions, just happen.
It sucks when you are stuck in the middle - when people on both sides are your friends. I am seriously freaked out by this. I hate internal strife. I seriously hate it. I just hope everything will go back to normal ASAP, because I cannot imagine life in Med school without all the happy moments I had with my new friends there and I really don't want to end up in a situation where friends end up hating or drawing away from each other all over again. Once bitten, twice shy. I don't want a replay of what happened in secondary school where the people I was close to just sort of broke apart because people just started getting annoyed with one another and cause others to take sides. I don't ever want to go through that again because quite simply, it sucks and affects friendships and everyone and stuff, and in the end, no one is going to be the winner or 'ULTIMATE SURVIVOR' and win amazing prizes or something. Because we all need one another. We seriously do. Because its going to be an utterly long road, and we need all the support and comradeship that we can get in order to make it.
So far, its been quite a bad week. I hope tomorrow's Potter Mania would help me forget all that has happened - at least for a day or something. Let me have a day away from all the troubles of reality.
Name: voldemort33
XY, 01/06/1987, s'porean typical geminian free-thinker moody & eccentric thinks far too much for his own good med student (be afraid. be very afraid!) demon45_6f@hotmail.com
crazy craves
music (jazz, rock and lounge) day-dreaming drawing & photography animals (sheep!) chocolate and tea! seafood, noodles and soup!
pet peeves
noisy crowds over-possessive, insecure, whiny people two-faced hypocrites housework and homework being called 'rich' rushing to do stuff crying, pesky kids
deepest darkest desires! (aka wishlist!)
to be a doctor (with a heart of gold!) a dog my own condo apartment a driving license and my own four wheel drive my own comic line someone to hug
