| Monday, 27 August 2007 |
| Imagine all the people... |
"Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one" - "Imagine", John Lennon
Right, so in school today, Christopher was introducing Project Lokun to us all, and trying to get people to join the project.
For the uninitiated, Project Lokun is an overseas CIP project to Cambodia spearheaded by Med Soc, where they go down every year and try to make a difference to the lives of the people there - like setting up mobile clinics, teaching them proper health care and safety habits, bringing them medicine, equipment etc.
But anyway, I was struck by a sudden desire to go. I dunno why, but I feel like my life's been so sheltered that I really ought to go, that I really should and want to do something different, to do something for others instead.
I know I don't want to spend another holiday like the previous one, where it was all just morbid enjoyment of pleasure and lazing around. I think I really should go make a difference and help change somebody's life, and play my part in changing the world, instead of just thinking about doing it and NEVER getting down to doing it.
But the problem is, once I've almost made up my mind about volunteering, some voice in the back of my head would just keep whispering doubts, doubts that grow stronger and stronger with each passing second.
I keep wondering if I can really do anything, if I can really commit, if I'm not just being willful or fickle or flaky again. I keep telling myself that I shouldn't be impulsive, that I've got to think this through, that I've got to take a step back and just pause to see the big picture... that going may not be such a good idea after all.
So in the end, I didn't go down. Its not too late to register for it, because registration closes on Friday, but I don't know if I would ever find the courage and impulse to go do it again.
I think the biggest hurdle for me is meeting new people. Whether I want to admit it or not, meeting new people has always been the a challenge for me, as an individual. I fear the awkwardness of meeting strangers and trying to get to know them, to talk to them etc. But I have to get over it, because its going to hinder my future growth and development as a human being.
And I guess that's the main reason why I'm hesitating to volunteer in the first place. Cause I'm afraid of meeting a whole bunch of strangers involved in the project. If someone I knew was interested to join with me, I wouldn't be hesitating to go for it and my name would probably be on the list right now.
Whatever the outcome is, I really hope to do some overseas CIP in my lifetime.
I don't want to just be a dreamer, I want to actually attempt to see the dream through.
Because maybe, just maybe, the key to realizing Mr Lennon's Utopian vision, is for everyone of us who dream out there, to summon a little bit of courage and just step out and attempt to try it.
And then we wouldn't have to imagine - it'll simply be reality.Labels: music, soul |
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