| Wednesday, 21 November 2007 |
| one step closer |
Update @ 2138: I just came back from my first night time drive in a long long time! It was so thrilling! Anyway, I'm feeling damn proud of myself right now, because its the first time I drove my parents about. After 20 years of driving me around the country, I've finally started to repay that debt of gratitude to them. Boy I feel grown up! =]
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Last night, I had dreams about my driving test. Very amusing dreams.
I dreamt that I missed my test timing. I dreamt that I booked a test for an auto car instead. I dreamt that I didn't book a driving test date at all! Anyway, I had lots of dreams (or rather nightmares) about it and it wasn't very nice.
And this morning, when I was lying in bed and preparing to wake up, I felt like I was Cristina Yang on her wedding day. There's this scene of her lying in bed, looking at the wedding gown hanging on her closet door, completely dreading the unknown and unpredictable events that might come. I felt like that this morning, and I just lay there staring at the curtains on my window, listening to the light drizzle that was happening outside, knowing that it was, again, time to go out and face the testers.
As much as I was dreading ever failing the test again, I knew that there was nothing to it, but to do it. Man, it was time.
And so I went and took the test. And woo-hoo! I passed! So now I have my license to drive. My hard earned license to drive. I'm so happy and pleased and proud of the fact that I finally got it. I started learning driving last year, when I was in the army, and finally, after almost two years, I've got the damn piece of paper that gives me the authority and right to drive on the roads. Life right now, at this very moment, is so damn good. I'm loving it.
Driving, to me, is important not as a skill or a means to get around; its more of a rite of passage to adulthood. Its the first major thing that I ever accomplished on my own, and it really makes me feel like an adult. It really is a milestone. I know its all transient and what not, and that its just a piece of paper, but that piece of paper sort of embodies everything about growing up - the responsibility it entails, the trust that society and people place in you, the way that your life (not to mention the life of others) is now in your own hands. It really is the first of many steps to being a man. And I'm glad I got through it.
To celebrate, I'm going to study cancer and neurology now before going out tonight. It's also a coincidence that today's the date of my parents' 26th wedding anniversary and so, in celebration of the double occasion, we are going out for dinner. And guess who's going to be behind the wheel tonight? =PLabels: driving, soul |
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