let's see how far we've come
Tuesday, 16 June 2009
I've Moved
I've moved!
here's the link!
posted by voldemort33 @ 17:07   21 comments
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
bad things don't just happen for a reason
Just when things were starting to get better, the sucky thing called 'life' deals you a horrible blow.
That's the nature of this world. When it rains, it pours.

All I'm going to say is that Damian's perfect record has just been broken. On hindsight, it was meant to go down. All records will be destroyed someday, let alone a record that was sitting on such dangerous grounds. Furthermore, its just a trivial record kept for vanity's sake and I should not be depressed over such trivial, insignificant things. I have to get over this.

Looks like my 2009 isn't off to a good start. Let's hope it doesn't end in shambles.

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posted by voldemort33 @ 22:18   0 comments
Friday, 2 January 2009
I pray for its swift arrival.
The grass is always greener on the other side.

I sometimes wonder why I ever chose to be in Medicine, to join a faculty where everyone is incredibly driven and never afraid to show it. Its like subjecting oneself to torture or locking yourself in a pressure cooker. The pressure is stifling and while it doesn't knock you out in the very first instance, it takes time to build up in intensity until the combined pressure becomes just simply too much to handle. That's when you are forced to implode.

I must admit that, up to now, I've never had to grapple with this unfortunate truth. Today was the day that I actually felt and witnessed the intensity of it all, the way the all encompassing pressure engulfs you and threatens to overpower you. I've finally had to face it and I'm telling you, I definitely do not want to have to face it again.

Its times like this when the unfortunate little thing called 'regret' would start to rear its ugly head, and then you wonder why you chose to let yourself be cooked in the pressure cooker in the first place. You start to wonder how life would be if you chose to be locked on the other side of the fence, to roam free among the fields and to find yourself with the time to stop and smell the flowers, instead of being hustled along a long stretching road of never-ending competitions and challenges. Its times like this when the tricky little thing called 'doubt' starts to surface in your heart and mind, and then you wonder if you can handle the immense pressure of it all; if you are equipped to survive the rat-race, if you are on par with your fellow compatriots.
You start wondering if you can ever match up to them, if you can ever compete with them, because you realise you just don't have the strength, stamina or speed to match them, because you don't see the point in doing so.

These are the days where the wish to NOT be in the race really surfaces. I can honestly say that I really really wish that I was free and carefree like Chen Sheng and just strolling down a beach somewhere along the Malayan Coast, singing a couple of Pantuns, with hardly a care for the world. Or exploring the streets of Europe and learning about the local history and culture.
Some people would call this desire of mine to be escapism. I view it as liberation.

At this point in time, I would give anything to be living a carefree life and to not be stuck in the cruel and ultra-competitive world of Medical School. I am honestly, quite sick of all the everyday politics and subtle rivalries as people, be it enemies, rivals and even friends, struggle to outwit and outmatch each other. It is just exhausting, too exhausting for one to have to face.

Everything has got to have an ending. I pray for its swift arrival.

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posted by voldemort33 @ 23:37   0 comments
如燕


"如燕" - Olivia Ong
愿意合上眼才能美梦无边
别让悔熏乌了从前

也许碎片才能让回忆展颜
何妨瓷花拼凑明天

谁带我寻获幸福的模
却自己谜中困锁

谁为我留下缱绻的天涯
信物是抹晚霞

Chorus:
思念如燕它飞舞舌尖
若是真爱配尝几分苦甜

意念婆娑时间里推磨
追随到何处才结果

燕如针线在青空缝编
几幅女红将以泪缀点

誓言斑驳情雾只是经过
风雨中且让我盈步婀娜

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HAPPY NEW YEAR! Changes are gonna come to this blog, I promise!

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posted by voldemort33 @ 00:23   0 comments
Thursday, 25 December 2008
The Little Nonya
I'm sorry to say that I've gotten hooked by the channel 8 drama, 'The Little Nonya'!

Its not as if the acting's stellar or fantastic and the plot's rather tragic and crappy at times. But because the plot is SO DAMN tragic, I'm sorta addicted because I have this urge to find out just how tragic people's lives can be!
Very morbid. But that's human nature. The extent of the bullying and mental torture in the drama is of epic proportions man.

Just an observation though. I realized that many of my favourite characters always end up with very very tragic endings. They either get raped and turn mad or they are victims of unrequited love and end up getting murdered. That said, I also noticed that I almost NEVER like the main characters. No idea why though.

Poor Yuzhu! Seeing her terrible fate unfold has got to be one of the most excruciating experience on television ever. And poor Chen Sheng as well. =(

Can't wait for the serial to end though. Release me from all the emotional cliff hangers!

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posted by voldemort33 @ 23:43   0 comments
yours truly

Name: voldemort33
XY, 01/06/1987, s'porean
typical geminian
free-thinker
moody & eccentric
thinks far too much for his own good
med student (be afraid. be very afraid!)
demon45_6f@hotmail.com
crazy craves
music (jazz, rock and lounge)
day-dreaming
drawing & photography
animals (sheep!)
chocolate and tea!
seafood, noodles and soup!
pet peeves
noisy crowds
over-possessive, insecure, whiny people
two-faced hypocrites
housework and homework
being called 'rich'
rushing to do stuff
crying, pesky kids
deepest darkest desires! (aka wishlist!)
to be a doctor (with a heart of gold!)
a dog
my own condo apartment
a driving license and my own four wheel drive
my own comic line
someone to hug
present
past
musings and inklings
people
other worlds
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