I've just got an excellent idea for a costume! I could go down as a virus; either HIV or Influenza or Ebola! Imagine the spikes I have to put around my face to get the gp120/gp41 glycoprotein appearance if I were to go to the party as HIV! How amusing!
What Your Halloween Habits Say About You
You are an outgoing person who's a bit of a showoff. It's likely that you dress up for Halloween every year.
You often feel invisible when you're in public. And it's a shame, because you're really quite a character.
Your inner child is curious, brainy, and maybe even a little gross.
You fear people taking advantage for you. You are always worried about protecting your own interests.
You're prone to be quite emotional and over dramatic. Deep down, you enjoy being scared out of your mind... even if you don't admit it.
You are a traditionalist with most aspects of your life. You like your Halloween costume to be basic, well made, and conventional enough to wear another year.
I LOOOVVVEEE Halloween! =D I'm so happy 71's planning a Halloween party on the 17th. I know its going to be damn close to the CAs and I'm probably screwing myself left, right, centre by going to the party, but I can't wait. Its going to be so much fun, plus its great to meet 71 again. Now to think of a costume and what food to bring, because I don't really want to go there as Harry Potter again. Maybe I'll be a Death Eater or Voldemort this time round, that'll be cool.
Such Great Heights - The Postal Service I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles In our eyes are mirror images and when We kiss they're perfectly aligned And I have to speculate that God himself Did make us into corresponding shapes like Puzzle pieces from the clay And true, it may seem like a stretch, but Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled Head when you're away when I am missing you to death When you are out there on the road for Several weeks of shows and when you scan The radio, I hope this song will guide you home
They will see us waving from such great Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say But everything looks perfect from far away, 'come down now,' but we'll stay...
I tried my best to leave this all on your Machine but the persistent beat it sounded Thin upon listening And that frankly will not fly. You will hear The shrillest highs and lowest lows with The windows down when this is guiding you home
Nice song. I love the way it makes me semi-happy. _____________________________________________________
This is going to sound really really random, but I've got to get this off my chest.
I was on my way home from town yesterday, and while I was sitting at the bus stop, Immunology notes in hand, I caught sight of multiple couples, intensely in love, walking around. And then its struck - this amazing sense of emptiness. And all of a sudden, I felt like dating again.
I think its a result of watching too much Grey's Anatomy, and being too emotionally involved with the TV series. And imagining myself being McDreamy and being Meredith's love of her life. Its getting into my head, and because Derek announced in the latest episode, that he needed to start dating, subconsciously, I felt that I needed to start dating as well. But see, that's the key - I may feel all emotionally drained and vulnerable, but I don't think I can find the strength or impetus to even date right now. Not when memories of the previous fiasco of a relationship are still fresh in my mind. Look where dating got me the previous time? In a horrible horrible mess.
Then there's the whole idea of who to date and stuff. Not that I don't have an idea of who I would want to date... its just that, I don't know if relationships are even my cup of tea. I mean - its me. I'm the great proponent of non-marriage, of being single for the rest of your life, of being a swinging single. I never thought I would end up in a state where I would be so sappy and love struck and even desperate. This is so unlike me - if you had told me back in Secondary School or JC that I would one day, be babbling like this today, I wouldn't have believed you. This is not good for me really. Seriously. My mind is playing games with me because I've been forcing it to take in boring, intense information on COFM, Immunology and Microbiology, and its not going to let me off the hook anytime soon.
Then there's the horrible phase of chasing the girl again. Gosh. The amount of time, effort and money spent the last time made me feel like an idiot. Sure it got me alot closer, but if that experience helped, girls can pick you up one moment and hurl you down in the next instance. Why are they so horrible?
Okay, maybe the problem's with me, that I'm daydreaming too much. I don't NEED to be dating. I just need time to stop thinking about people being giddly in love and hating their guts for being in love. I need time to stop thinking that love exists, but that its just not with me right now. More importantly, I need to stop feeling this amazing upsurge of jealousy when she talks and laughs with another guy. I need to focus on friendship first, and NOT on possibilities. I NEED TO FOCUS. I need for one freaking point in my life, to not be as neurotic as Derek, or as klutzy as Meredith. I need to be freaking Bailey, focused, determined, and in her Nazi best. I mean, I have upcoming exams. I have driving. I have problems - people to people problems, being part of the family problems, being a worthy enemy problems, being a good friend problems. And again, I have exams. I have studying to do. I have to focus on my priorities and not fantasize on possible what ifs and fairy tale scenarios where I'm her knight in shining whatever who saves her from drowning during a boating incident. Focus. That's what I need.
*Takes a deep steadying breath* I am so so so screwed.
I never thought I could love Meredith Grey even more. But after today's episode of 'Grey's Anatomy', I found myself falling even more deeply in love with her. Bringing her mom's ashes to the hospital and trying to find a way to get rid of her? Perfect. And she volunteering to help the boy get his ear. OMG. How sweet is that? I really love Meredith Grey! If I were in Seattle Grace right now, I'll fight Derek for her hand in marriage! She's so lovable and kooky and scary and damaged, but yet... she's in a strange strange twisted way, so so whole and fixed and complete. Plus she has squeaky eyes. I love squeaky squeaky playful flirty eyes. And nice hair, and nice fashion sense! And her nervous stammering! I love her nervous stammering, because I think its really me. I would love to just have a whole day of nervous stammering with her. Sigh!
I could go on about the latest episode of Grey's, but I'm too distracted by the whole thought of Mer to really concentrate. This week's episode has lots of Mer! Lots and lots of Mer! I really love Meredith! I LOVE MER! I think I should complete what I have left for Immunology, and find the time to watch the episode again. Sigh.
On another note: I really don't know what's happening, but I pray and hope that everything thing will turn out fine. I don't want to be haunted for the rest of my life.
This is an artiste's impression of what my new house is supposed to look like. Apparently, most of my relatives feel that it looks like a modern medical centre - which is fitting considering that well, I'm living there. Who knows! Maybe one day, I'll convert it to a medical centre and have my own private practice there, right in the middle of a private residential estate. Kekekekekekeke.
P.S: I think I'm starting to panic about life right now. Driving and upcoming CAs are freaking me out! I really should stop studying with my laptop on. Time to get serious now!
Okay, it really is a test of your patience for one to mug his/her set of COFM notes. Its hard to concentrate on what your are reading when everything that you read just makes that little voice in your head go 'Tut tut tut!' or 'Erh, DUH!' or even worse 'WTF was that whole paragraph about?'.
So I decided to take a long break from COFM tonight and started scrolling through photographs. I think its high time I posted some of my favourite photos from my Europe trip. This entry's long overdue, so its time I paid my dues!
Our first group photo of the trip - at the Eiffel Tower! There are many other nice group photos but I think this was the most significant because it was the first and we were quite high over seeing the Eiffel Tower, which was the first major landmark that we saw on the whole trip.
I went to Monaco, and I bought a car. And its a Rolls-Royce at that. =]
Xiuzhen and me at a Beer Hall in Munich, on what was incidentally, my birthday! Judging by the dazed/glassy look on my face, I was most probably tipsy then. Which isn't surprising since I've always been quite weak with alcohol! =p
Shi Hui and me, in some wine cellar in Germany! I noticed that we've been drinking alot during this trip! Such debauchery!
A windmill and me! In Amsterdam of course.
The London Eye and me!
Woo-hoo! This was in Venice! I love this photo! Notice the poetic symmetry people?
I love this photo too! I dunno why, but it makes me look damn cool. The statue at the back's supposed to be the founder of the Natural History Museum or something. Can't exactly remember the details though, it was like 4 odd months ago.
A photo of me with the person who is the closest equivalent of a sister to me - my cousin Astee, who is studying in London right now. Needless to say, I am awfully jealous of her. =/ (and after this photo, I'm forced to admit - we do look alike!)
Me kicking the Leaning Tower of Pisa! Woo hoo!
Hoho, this was what my Krispy Kreme Donuts looked liked after being squashed to make it through customs. I was so pissed with them that I ate them for lunch while waiting for our transfer flight home!
I still have lots of other photos that I kinda like - most of them feature me in very unglam scenarios. Maybe I'll placed them up here in another post. Too much photos to sieve through. That's what happens when you have over 7000 photos to choose from! Til next time then!
Teenagers - My Chemical Romance They're gonna clean up your looks With all the lies on the books To make a citizen out of you Because they sleep with a gun And keep an eye on you son So they can watch all the things you do
Because the drugs never work They're gonna give you a smirk Cause they got methods Of keeping you clean They're gonna rip off your heads Your aspirations to shreds Another cog in the murder machine
They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me They could care less as long as someone'll bleed So darken your clothes Or strike a violent pose Maybe they'll leave you alone But not me
The boys and girls in the clique The awful names that they stick You're never gonna fit in much kid But if you're troubled and hurt What you got under your shirt Will make them pay for the things that they did
They said now teenagers scare the living shit out of me They could care less as long as someone'll bleed So darken your clothes Or strike a violent pose Maybe they'll leave you alone But not me
Whoa yeah!!!
They said now teenagers scare the living shit out of me They could care less as long as someone'll bleed So darken your clothes Or strike a violent pose Maybe they'll leave you alone But not me
All together now, Teenagers scare the living shit out of me They could care less as long as someone'll bleed So darken your clothes Or strike a violent pose Maybe they'll leave you alone But not me
Teenagers scare the living shit out of me They could care less as long as someone'll bleed So darken your clothes Or strike a violent pose Maybe they'll leave you alone But not me ________________________
I'm really crazy over this song right now. I think its actually an emo song disguised as a crazy rock song! But strangely, it makes me happy. And its probably the only happy song that I've heard by My Chemical Romance. The MVs so amusing! My Chemical Romance films some of the best Music Videos ever. I like the way the teenagers are portrayed as zombies, and the cheerleaders with their gas masks and batons, oooooooo so kinky! But anyway, I love the lyrics. I feel that way about teenagers these days. I get so freak out when I meet those Ah Bengs and Ah Lians hanging about on Orchard road, or stalking heartland malls like Ang Mo Kio Hub. I'm absolutely paranoid about them waiting to bash me up. And when they come together to smoke! Oh gosh. I really want to kill them but am too hum chee to do so. But yeah, teenagers these days - are so bloody scary.
This weekend hasn't been that productive. I managed to finish my immuno notes, but I was supposed to finish my microbiology notes as well. I'm still left with HIV and antiviral treatment... and the coming week's supposed to be blocked out for reading up on COFM. And gosh, there's driving lessons again! Its just two more weeks to the start of my CAs and I'm feeling the crunch now! However, I absolutely shall not panic and shall continue on with my revision plan in a highly dignified manner.
And so South Africa wins the 2007 Rugby World Cup. Poor England, I know they weren't the favourites to win, but they are England, and anything English occupies a special place in my heart. I've always been an Anglophile and I guess that's not going to change really. I watched the finals - it was quite exciting, but also quite boring as well. The only attempt at a try was unfortunately, disqualified by the referee, which was a real pity because England scored it, and if it were allowed to stand, the victors would most likely have been England instead. And the whole nation would be celebrating their second consecutive World Cup win right now.
I think England played remarkably well - at least in comparison to their rather lack lustre World Cup campaign; they were attacking much more regularly and skillfully than before. Its just that the South African defence was too strong, and the Springboks managed to convert all the penalties, which mattered, because in a game without a single try (a first in a World Cup final at that!), every penalty converted counts. So kudos to them. Even though I'm a fervent supporter of England, I have nothing against South Africa winning, because they deserved it. They were the better of the two teams that played last night, and in every game, someone has to lose. And at least England lost to South Africa, a former dominion and a member of the Commonwealth. I think its always better to lose to someone in the extended family, rather than losing to some other country like say France! Gosh, how terrible that would have been! So yeah, congratulations South Africa! And to England, better luck next time! You did the best you could and no one can fault you for that.
Its interesting to note that while I love watching Sports programmes, I absolutely hate to work out. I think this needs to stop. I'm too lazy for my own good, and if I don't make an attempt to get my anorexic body into a survivable stage, I might actually die before I'm 25. Which is not really a good thing because I wouldn't have managed to do lots of the things I wanna achieve by then. So yeah, I need to start working out. But procrastination is my middle name, and I guess we'll just have to see when it chooses to take a back seat and surprise surprise, allow me to start jogging or cycling or swimming or something.
So I came home from my Grandma's, to be greeted by several MSN windows flashing on my laptop (which I had left on, because I was downloading Season 4 episodes of Grey's Anatomy into my hard drive). One of them was from Gerard, who sent me this link to yahoo news. The first thing that came to my mind after I read it was 'what the heck? is this real?'. Apparently, JK Rowling announced at the closing event of her US book tour, which was a book read and QnA session at Carnegie Hall, that Albus Dumbledore was gay. I really thought the yahoo link was a hoax, so I went to get confirmation by visiting 4 of my favourite(and highly reliable) Harry Potter news/fansites - and lo and behold, all 4 of them carried the same story as well.
So there you have it. Dumbledore is gay. That explains quite alot of things really.
I'm honestly... quite shocked that she'll drop this bombshell, like right now. It feels like she just came up with this random juicy piece of information to get people to keep talking and speculating about her books again - but as one of her most die-hard, fanatical, loyal fans out there, I shall give her the benefit of the doubt and just accept that it happened not because she was out to garner attention, but because it was a genuine piece of background character information that she had lived with over the years. And felt that it was time, post Deathly Hallows, to reveal to her readers right now.
I can't help but wonder how parents and children who are reading the books would react to this news though. I have no doubt how those Christian groups who hate the books would react, but I'm just more worried about the parents' reactions. Knowing how overprotective some parents can be, they'll be launching ban-harry-potter petitions and organising book burning sessions right now. Which is ridiculous, but then, behavior expected from those crazy parents out there. But like seriously. Wow. Dumbledore gay? That's really really weird and disturbing because I seriously seriously seriously can't imagine Dumbledore frolicking in bed with Gellert Grindelwald. Its too troubling for my mind - 2 really old men having, erm fun. Its amazing they both don't die from heart attacks or something. I never thought she'll actually announce that any character was gay, let alone someone as well loved as Dumbledore! But hey, gay though he may be, he's still the most powerful wizard of his age (except Voldemort of course!) and you have to give him credit for being one of the most brilliant wizards who ever lived.
Oh well, she created this world. If she says Harry's transsexual, Harry's transsexual. So really. She says Albus Dumbledore's gay, and I'm not going to argue with her over that.
MEREDITH: "At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need." - Grey's Anatomy, Season 3, Episode 10, "Don't Stand So Close To Me"
Okay, just based on the whole chunk up there, you can probably infer that I've been watching 'Grey's' on Channel 5 again. What can I say? I'm just so addicted to 'Grey's'.
Anyway, that was Mer's voice-over closing speech-ending-thingy at the end of the 10th episode of Season 3. The episode's theme was on family, both your real biological family, and the family that you choose to adopt along the way. I love the whole chunk up there. I know some of you would just say that its all just scripted melodrama, but you can't deny the truth behind those well scripted words. Because that's really what people do. You find people, you pick them, and you choose who you want to be close to, and you stick by them, irregardless of whether you are holding on to them too tightly or whether you are influencing them in a negative way. Because they've become your family, your family away from your family, and you NEVER give up on family; no matter how irritating, how troublesome, how different they may be, you DO NOT quit your family. Simple as that.
I don't have anything else to say really. I just found the whole chunk up there very illuminating, and was overwhelmed by this sudden urge to post it up here. 'Grey's' really teaches you stuff - not just medical stuff, but human stuff as well. I keep finding parallels between events in the show and the life I'm living right now - so its hard not to lose myself completely to the non-reality of the series.
The weekend has so far been good for me. I forgot that yesterday was a Public Holiday, so I was really shocked to see my Dad home on Saturday, because he usually works on Saturday. But anyway, I loved the fact that it was a Public Holiday, and so in the spirit of Public Holidays, I decided to just stay at home, chill, drink tea, surf the net, read a little Harry Potter, listen to some music, blog, and of course do some studying. I'm glad I stayed at home yesterday, I had a very productive day in terms of getting notes read and done, I managed to considerably demolish the whole stack of Immuno notes that I had accumulated, so I'm very pleased with myself. I'm going to stay home today as well, and work on finishing that whole stack of Cancer notes. Woo hoo, getting work done makes me feel happy now.
We have gotten the keys to our new house! Yup, we are finally the official proud owners of no.19 Jalan Jitong. Went down yesterday for a short while to try and see which keys go where, which was quite hellish because we were given like 20 sets of different keys, without any idea which doors they locked/opened. In the end we sorta gave up, because we decided that what the heck, we were going to demolish the building anyway, so there's really no point to finding out where the individual keys went. Its going to be interesting to see how the house evolves and develops into a new house, although I think the process is going to be soooooo tiring and long. But I hope the end results are worthed it. Okay, it had better be worthed it because a large part of my inheritance is probably going into the construction cost. Haha.
I love the slow pace of this weekend. It feels like a long weekend, but it isn't. There's a vibe to it that I can't really describe. I think it feels like a chance to be in tune with yourself, especially after a crazy week. To sit down and get some work done. No more excuses, just you, yourself, focusing on the task at hand. Just doing it. Yeah, so doing it. I canceled all my plans this weekend, just to stay at home and enjoy some quiet isolation time, although there's still the family BBQ tonight. But then, I may give that a miss as well, because I'm on a roll this weekend. A good roll. And I should keep it that way. So yeah, we'll see.
My dad dropped a bombshell on me this morning - he told me that he was starting to plan for a location for my 21st birthday celebrations. I was quite taken a back and sorta blurted out that I didn't even consider having a 21st birthday celebration. He said that I should, because my brother had one, and he was fair so I should have one (I think he was just trying to make amends for something he said yesterday that got me quite pissed!) I told him its okay and I rather he gave me the capital he intended for the birthday and allowed me to spend it on some things I want - like a new Ipod, Starcraft II, a second hand car, Harry Potter props and medical equipment. I think my mom and dad both thought I was joking and just laughed it off, but seriously, I'm not! I know alot of people who had their 21st and didn't celebrate it have feedback to me, saying that they felt it was a big regret of theirs not to have done something big. But the whole idea of organising a party for myself just smells like unnecessary trouble. There'll be so many things to consider... like how many people to invite, who to invite; do I have one huge party or a series of smaller parties; food, drinks, entertainment; a location to have it (because by then I will be homeless and my new house's not going to be ready yet); do I have a theme or no theme; and clean-up, oh my god, the clean-up is going to be a mess. So no, I don't really want to have a big 21st birthday. I'll rather have a house warming instead, but that's another different matter altogether. Seriously. I shouldn't even think about my 21st birthday when so many people I know have yet to even cross the big 2-0 mark yet.
KT Tunstall is amazing! Her voice has this smokey quality to it. Smokey, but rockish. Brilliant combination. Maybe she's the reason why I'm so zen this weekend. "Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see) This is what I wanna be Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see) Why the hell it means so much to me" - 'Suddenly I See', KT Tunstall Old song, but its happy, and I feel happy!
Edit: The full version's on youtube now so here it is!
Hehe, this is so hilarious. Watch the longer versions on the official site, they are downright hilarious! It'll be a long time before they get onto youtube, so the official site's your best bet.
I just want to say that there is no way Izzie is going to beat Callie in a cat fight. I mean come on! Did you not see the way Callie almost flattened Meredith in season 3, when she went all cage fight on her? Granted Meredith is a very small person compared to both Callie and Izzie... I mean, Izzie's freaking tall, and Callie's freaking huge... but seriously, Izzie can't beat Callie. Callie's like some overly intense gothic rock chick that breaks bones for a living! And bone is one of the hardest substances on Earth! So if Callie can actually crack bones with a single punch/slap/scratch/whatever, Izzie's never going to have a chance with her optimistic "I WILL SURVIVE!" speeches!
Of course, I don't think the cat-fight's going to actually happen, but it'll be pretty damn nice if it did. If there's anything that turns me on, it'll be two women trying to rip each other's gut out. Yummy yum yum! =>
I just watched the latest episodes of 'Private Practice' and 'Grey's Anatomy'. I must say that 'Private Practice' is really getting better and better. I was initially quite skeptical about the show having even a fraction of the quality that 'Grey's' had, but after three episodes, I must say I've so far been proven wrong.
Granted that the first episode wasn't that good, but the subsequent episodes were better scripted, more tightly paced, and better made. The acting has also significantly improved, the characters are turning mildly interesting, and Addison is still as delectable as ever. Granted that I don't like all the new characters - Naomi's like some out of control divorcee, and Sam's like this unrealistic overly-perfect man who could do no wrong, and the Paeds guy? Like isn't he obviously a psychotic pervertic paedophile? And that alternative-medicine guru-quack-person, being mysterious and all - like what's that about? AND OH YEAH, the himbo midwife receptionist surfer guy, like seriously, where's you man-pride? Stop salivating everytime you see your boss walk by! SERIOUSLY! Have some basic man-pride! Okay, looks like I don't really like all the characters, but I actually like someone else in the show other than Addison! I LOVE VIOLET THE SCREWED UP PSYCHIATRIST! Although extremely cliche, I actually like her character! She's funny and I love her as much as Addison now! Her neurotic nature is endearing! (Her frizzy 80s hair do though, isn't) And she's played out by the actress who starred as Amy in Judging Amy! So yeah, she's quite well portrayed.
I must also add that I got quite touched by the scenarios in the last two episodes, which is something I thought possible only when I watch 'Grey's'. Well kudos to Addie and gang! To quote Cristina, 'just when I thought you were boring, you rise.'
Looks like I'll still be hanging on to 'Private Practice' afterall. _____________________________________
But of course, the lion's share of my love will always be reserved for Meredith and gang. 'Grey's' has reverted back to its old styled formula for success, with lots of light hearted humour, less dark and heavy character development, but still packed with enough emotions to pull that emo-cord. The previous episode was great, today's episode didn't disappoint as well.
I know I've said this over and over again, but I really love the central friendship between Meredith and Cristina. They are so freaking cool together. I love the way their friendship works - how Cristina had the guts to even fake depression to steal Meredith's high profile surgery; how Meredith willingly switched with Cristina, even if it meant that she would have to trade a really cool surgery for a baby sitting job that required her to take charge of Lexie for a day; how Meredith found out about it and still accepted it without being all bitchy like how people would normal react to such a situation; how she tried to beat Cristina at her game by acting all sympathetic and insisting they talk things over, or worse, CRY things over; and how Cristina sorta worked out that Meredith knew that she's been faking it, and how she presented that the 'oh-shucks-i'm-busted' look on her face. And in the end, they got over the whole 'squabble' by trading a few sarcastic, really witty retorts at each other and then everything's like back to normal, like they've come to a common understanding on things and there isn't really much to debate about. Because they know that they'll be each other's 'person' forever and they are really good at doing it for each other. Whenever the need arises, they'll be there for each other, in their really weird, quirky and dysfunctional way, they'll be there.
Bailey finally accepting Callie as Chief Resident, and extending a helping hand to her, volunteering to be her 'number two'. I expected someone as great as Bailey to do no less. It was nice to see these two incredibly powerful women finally put aside their differences and just recognize that they really could work together to do this, to really run the hospital. I think they really could be a great team, with Bailey showing Callie the ropes and Callie learning from Bailey, these two mighty women can really kick ass. So watch out Residents, the Bailey-Callie combo is going to kick your damn butts til they turn sore. The Nazi and bone-breaking-intense-rocker-chick are so gonna rule the hospital together.
Alex being a jerk to George, and ratting him out by telling all the interns that he is a repeater. Okay... I must admit that Alex is being a bit mean here (I can imagine all the George fanatics out there screaming in protest when he did that!) but seriously, a part of me is glad that Alex did that. I'm sorry, but I'm afraid George has really evolved into my most disliked character. I think he is a mean bastard for doing that to Callie and Izzie and I bet with you, he will end up hurting them both again. He ends up not being with Izzie, but still hurts Callie. And how do I know that? Because I have my spoiler sources. (Hehe!) Like Sam said (as in Samantha my friend, the really girly girl who apparently used to love ribbons in her hair and not Naomi's husband on Private Practice), George really is quite screwed up, he just can't seem to get anything right these days. Okay, Alex shouldn't have done that in such a brutal manner, but I guess, George really has to pay his dues. And please, stop looking so determined and sad George, because it really doesn't suit you and it makes you look like you haven't been fed. (AGAIN, QUOTING CRISTINA!) Where is the happy, lovable, bumbling George of the past? I miss him.
Izzie was so so nice today. Really old guy came back to life, and promptly lost his life again. But Izzie, as usual, tried her best to get him back again and again and again. In the end, he still dies. However, Izzie was funny today, showing her usual crazy, hopeful, optimistic thing again. I think she knows that she's going to be hurt by George but she still clings on to hope and HOPES that it wouldn't be so bad. The poor thing. She had so much to deal with already, and now she has to deal with the fallout that is going to come from sleeping with your already married best friend and actually falling in love with him. *shakes head* It's a pity she's stuck in a rut with that George. =/
Did I mention that Meredith's quite a good teacher? Pity Lexie didn't appreciate her teaching method. Tsk tsk.
Derek and Mark having a friendship again - they remind me of Cristina and Mer, only that they are the male versions of it. Witty sarcastic comments and retorts - the perfect substitute for caffeine and drugs! Nothing keeps the day going better than a friend who is totally honest and sarcastic with you! =D
Really Old Guy revealing that he knows far more than people expected him to know. And his incessant reference to Izzie as 'Blondie'. Hilarious! Its a pity he died, he could have been a really really interesting recurrent character. I loved the little tribute they gave him though. Really really sweet.
The world's oldest intern? With all due respect, you really are a pain in the ass. (and please, get a shave!)
Favourite line of the day - Cristina going 'ME SO SSSSAAADDDD' with what I swear is a Singlish accent! Totally made my day!
The Sorting Hat would put you in Ravenclaw. You are wise, perceptive, and quietly brilliant. You may not always be noticed right away, but you are widely respected for your humor and brains.
I'm still alive! Feeling better now that the week's almost over, though I really could do with a good long rest or something. But I'm happier right now, because things aren't so tough anymore and there's school. I think going to school and talking to friends and laughing with them helps with the pain, cause its really not that great now; better to not think about it I guess. Plus, I'm in Ravenclaw! 'Wise, perceptitve and quietly brilliant'. I don't mean to be thick-skinned but yes, how true, how true. =P
This is going to be a very bad week. Without a doubt, life is one mad roller coaster ride. One moment you are sitting in the lecture hall thinking that life couldn't be any more boring, the next, you receive a sms from your rather distraught mother, informing you that someone in the family had passed away.
All you can think about next is the hows and whys. And then you suddenly realize that all the crap that people love to say about life being short and all? Turns out they aren't that far off the mark after all.
This is going to be a very very long, bad, depressing week. With the wake and eventual funeral, with tuition and long nights, with PBL on Wednesday, the return of boring COFM lectures, a PDCP lecture on Friday and that looming threat that is the upcoming CAs, its hard not to fall back to the temptation of being all 'dark and twisty' again.
Public Health Screening '07 was an interesting and fun experience. Nevermind that I spent the bulk of my time there taking patients' history, and only had the chance to take the blood pressure of one patient - and nevermind the fact that I was too tired to stay for the second slot, and thus only stayed for the first one. I feel as if I've learnt something out of it. I think the greatest take home message I brought back with me yesterday is that communication with the general public is key - and also not an easy task. Its very easy to assume that people can understand what you are saying, when more often than not, they don't. Words like Hypertension and Hyperlipidemia, which are second nature to us, are like Greek to the general public. I think we all have a long way to go to learning how to deal with this problem of communication, and watching the M3s, M4s and M5s overcome the communication barrier is something very inspiring - its amazing what a couple of years in clinical practice would bring.
I've also discovered that I love seeing older patients, especially old ladies. They are so cute and entertaining! They are genuine and they tell the funniest stories ever! I find old ladies very amusing, and I really enjoy interacting with them. I don't know if this fixation with old grandmas will necessarily lead to a future in geriatrics, but I think I really do have a 'Grandma Complex' in me. I must say that one of the reasons that I joined medicine arose from the fact that my Grandmothers are/were sufferers of chronic disease. My maternal grandma is a diabetic, while my paternal grandma died of heart failure, renal failure, and lots and lots of various complications. In some sense, I love helping old grannies because they sort of remind me of my grandmothers. Not very healthy but hey, I think nothing bad will come out of it.
Most importantly, I think that PHS (plus this week's episode of Grey's Anatomy!) sorta restored my drive and faith in being a doctor. It showed that there are people out there that still need and must be helped - and that society isn't as decadent as I made it out to be. While the majority of society is still squandering their health away, there still exists a minority of people that really need out help, and I guess, its this minority of people that I'm living and working so hard for.
Lust.Caution is the kind of film you watch when you want to stay up all night and contemplate about the true nature of human relationships. It is a film that is sophisticated, with amazing attention to detail, flawless acting, well made, emotional and intriguing; it is also the kind of film that has a tendency to be a drag, slightly too abstract - guaranteed to give you a nasty headache, and to also turn your bright and sunny day into a gloom filled, storm cast night.
Which probably explains why I'm having a throbbing headache right now, because I've been trying to digest what I've just watched in the cinema and I don't think I can do it without blowing my brains up. Its deep, and has so many layers of subtext that it fills your mind up with too much thoughts, so much that it makes you want to puke it all out in despair. That said, I enjoyed myself tremendously - I thought the film, though quite a lot to chew on, was enjoyable and probably one of the most intelligent films that I've watched this year. The same cannot be said of my dinner, which was wolfed down so fast that I couldn't even remember the taste of it. Grrrrr.
The film was heavily cut - the infamous sex scenes were so watered down that they don't really matter at all really. But still, while it reduces some of the emotional power of the film and acting, it doesn't hurt the progression of the already long film (though some horny bastards out there would no doubt enjoy the longer, sex filled edition!). Although I must question the NC-16 rating here in Singapore. With the sex scenes so watered down, there really isn't much reason to put such a rating anymore. The film was rather tame and I really see no point in slapping a NC-16 rating onto such a tame film. I rather they give us the ORIGINAL cut and slap it with a M18 (or R21, but the latter will mean that I can't watch it, so M18 is much much better!), at least the rating would be warranted then.
I must say the acting of the female lead, Tang Wei is impeccable - she was so superb in her acting, and was able to convey the feelings and changes in emotions that her character undergoes so well. From idealistic student who joins a patriotic movement, to alluring double agent trying to seduce her bait and ultimately, a hard-broken woman who betrays everything in the name of love. Fantastic. She's like a linguist - she speaks perfect Mandarin, English, Cantonese and Shanghai-nese! Plus she is quite the looker too! I think I've fallen in love with her! Woo hoo!
Ultimately, the film is a tragic story of the hurt idealism brings; the question of where your loyalty lies - country? self? the enemy?; the complexities of human nature and emotions; the notion of trust being found, and trust being lost; the hurt betrayal brings. As you watch this cat-and-mouse thriller unfold, you learn the price people pay for letting caution go, and for letting lust win over you. It is a painful, emotional story of a woman's loss and sacrifice. Recommended for all you fellow emo-kids out there! Go watch and wrench you heart out while being all emo over it! =p
Breathe In Breathe Out - Mat Kearney Breathe in, breathe out Tell me all of your doubts Everybody bleeds this way, just the same Breathe in, breathe out Move on and break down If everyone goes away, I will stay We push and pull And I fall down sometimes And I’m not letting go You hold the other line Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
Hold on, hold tight If I’m out of your sight And everything keeps moving on, moving on Hold on, hold tight Make it through another night In every day there comes a song with the dawn We push and pull And I fall down sometimes And I’m not letting go You hold the other line Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes There is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
Breathe in and breathe out Breathe in and breathe out Breathe in and breathe out Breathe in and breathe out
Look left, look right To the moon and the night Everything under the stars is in your arms
Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes There is a light in your eyes, in your eyes There is a light in your eyes, in your eyes _______________________________________________
Also known as the latest Grey's Anatomy theme song. Watch the Grey's MV for the song, its definitely circulating somewhere on youtube.
I like the lyrics of the song. Especially the line 'We push and pull/And I fall down sometimes/I'm not letting go/You hold the other line'. For some reason or another, it has this amazing pull on me. Amazing line.
I really like Mat Kearney's songs! Very introspective, very emo, very dark and sad. I've been looking for his album at CD stores for ages, but apparently, S'pore doesn't have it. I'm going to get my brother to buy it for me (along with my Ipod) in the US when he goes there at the end of the year!
That said, I realise that I should stop mugging Pharmacology and Pathology and instead focus on Immunity, Microbiology and COFM first - I just came to realise that these are tested in the first round of CAs.... while the rest, along with Neuroscience are tested in the second round of CAs that are up at the END of the semester!
Name: voldemort33
XY, 01/06/1987, s'porean typical geminian free-thinker moody & eccentric thinks far too much for his own good med student (be afraid. be very afraid!) demon45_6f@hotmail.com
crazy craves
music (jazz, rock and lounge) day-dreaming drawing & photography animals (sheep!) chocolate and tea! seafood, noodles and soup!
pet peeves
noisy crowds over-possessive, insecure, whiny people two-faced hypocrites housework and homework being called 'rich' rushing to do stuff crying, pesky kids
deepest darkest desires! (aka wishlist!)
to be a doctor (with a heart of gold!) a dog my own condo apartment a driving license and my own four wheel drive my own comic line someone to hug
