| Tuesday, 6 January 2009 |
| bad things don't just happen for a reason |
Just when things were starting to get better, the sucky thing called 'life' deals you a horrible blow.
That's the nature of this world. When it rains, it pours.
All I'm going to say is that Damian's perfect record has just been broken. On hindsight, it was meant to go down. All records will be destroyed someday, let alone a record that was sitting on such dangerous grounds. Furthermore, its just a trivial record kept for vanity's sake and I should not be depressed over such trivial, insignificant things. I have to get over this.
Looks like my 2009 isn't off to a good start. Let's hope it doesn't end in shambles.Labels: life |
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| Tuesday, 5 August 2008 |
| happiness is a random thing |
In view of recent hardships and horrible times, I have decided to compile a short list of stuff that actually make me happy, so as to remind myself that pain and hardship is transient, and despite the fact that I'm perpetually tired and busy, I am still capable of encountering stuff that makes me happy. Its all part of the plan; the plan to get my life and mindset all crazily positive again. This new found enthusiasm to get my life back on the optimistic fast track was sparked by the Sodagreen concert: its as if I've found some fresh injection of botox into my dying life.
So here goes, my 10-random-things-that-currently-make-me-happy list:
1. Famous Amos Cookies: My mom bought a bag of them and a couple of famous Amos cookies everyday never fails to brighten up my day!
2. Listening to music on my Ipod: Music is really essential for me to function normally. In particular, Sodagreen's music! I always feel happier if I start my day listening to a couple of their fast numbers.
3. Watching '康熙来了': An hour of my day is usually spent watching the latest episode of '康熙'. Its only an hour, but it brings in much needed laughter!
4. Sleeping in the car: I need every chance I get to pay my massive sleep debt, and sleeping in the car allows me to pass time and catch up on much needed sleep.
5. Meeting up with friends who aren't in medicine: They remind me that I do have a semi-functioning life outside of medicine!
6. Sleeping in on Sundays: The only day where I can sleep in. Again, its important that I recover from that stupid sleep debt. And its the only day where my mom won't wake me up early (she tends to wake me up early on Saturdays because we have to make our way down to my Grandma's by the afternoon...)
7. Reading the latest chapter of 'Bleach' that is launched every Friday: something exciting to look forward to! And it always heralds a new week of speculation!
8. Staying up late on Fridays and Saturdays: extra long hours to do random stuff, be it play games, surf the net, study, draw, listen to music or just stone.
9. Bitching with friends from medicine: Still my favourite socializing past time. Haha.
10. A day in the hospital where I manage to do good clerking and do good PEs: such days are actually hard to come by. Then again, happiness comes when you don't expect too much as well. So yeah. I shan't expect too much!
Totally random. How amusing.Labels: life, list, randomness |
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| Saturday, 10 May 2008 |
| we all rush to lay the tracks |
I think its scary that time seems to be flitting pass too quickly.
And its even scarier when you realize that you have lots of things on your plate to settle before time catches up with you.
With just another 3 more weeks, we would come to the month of June and I will turn 21.
This heralds the end of CSFC and the start of M3, which means I have approximately 3 more weeks to get my history taking and physical examination skills up to scratch.
It also means that I have 3 more weeks to settle everything for my birthday party, which is another chore because, even up til now, the guest list isn't confirmed because there are still people who have not replied to my invites. And now, with the fact that I'm also going on a trip to Japan in June, I have to start planning and researching on what to see, where to go and what to do in the Land of the Rising Sun. So yeah, 3 weeks to do everything. Should be hell lots of fun.
Its the weekend! Time to try cramping in loads of reading.
Now for a shower and lunch, and then I shall attempt to do some reading before dinner tonight.
I wish I could be cryptic about some stuff, but I seem to have lost the ability to use my words subtly and properly. So I think I should just shut up and stop typing before I shoot myself in the foot or bite myself in the tongue. I think its a good thing I'm less emo these days, because I've sorta gotten over the fact that fatigue and exhaustion are just going to be loyal companions of mine for the rest of my dear life. And I swore to myself that I shall complain less and be more proactive. I can do this, I will steer the course of my own life with my own bare hands.
"There is no darkness but ignorance!" - AnonLabels: life, quotes, randomness |
| posted by voldemort33 @ 12:25 |
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| Friday, 22 February 2008 |
| well, its goodbye green meadows |
Well, tonight's the last night that I will be spending in the place that I had so fondly called home for the past 20 years. I've lived here all my life and now, its time to say goodbye.
My family was having a farewell gathering for the house on Sunday, with my whole extended family and all. One of my uncles asked if I felt sad with regards to the moving. I was struck dumb by that question, and told him, 'Not really.', to which my uncle exclaimed 'But you grew up here! You should have some emotional attachment to the place!' I decided to go for the smile politely and slowly back away tactic to avoid anymore questions.
If anything, that conversation got me thinking about why I don't have any emotions with regards to leaving this place. I mean, my uncle was right. I practically grew up in this house. For the past 20 years, it had seen me grow from a baby that won't shut up to a young man who knows the importance of shutting up. All my developmental milestones: my first step, my first word, chickenpox, puberty, losing consciousness - all were experienced right here. By convention, I should be sad that I'm leaving. But I'm not.
I don't think I am a very sentimental person. Or rather, I don't show my sentiment easily. When crunch time comes, I suppress or rationalize all feelings of emotion and sentiment. Deep down inside, I am sure that I probably do feel some nuance of sadness, of regret that we have to leave, but then these feelings are just not surfacing. I think I've grown up to face any feelings of sadness in the same fashion as how I deal with all trials and tribulations, that is just stand up, face it, and move on. Clear cut, no emotional drag and sentimental messiness.
Does that make me a cruel, callous, unfeeling person? I don't know. Some part of me regrets that I've grown into someone who just doesn't see the point in being sentimental over such things. But then, it just doesn't make sense to be sad over something that's just a phase in life. You think of it, you cherish it, you remember it - yes that's my definition of sentimental, but don't keep wishing it would come back and moping over the fact that is gone. That's just a whole new level of pathetic behavior. Move on, but don't forget and everything still lives on in your OWN heart.
Whatever way our stories end, some things can never be changed.
So its goodbye Green Meadows. I'll miss the whole thing about the big sheep living in the green meadows. It was funny while it lasted. =)Labels: life, randomness, soul |
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