Today's one of the crappiest days ever. A total roller coaster of emotions. I was happy in the morning, shocked at noon, in a high in the afternoon, and was promptly sent crushing downwards later, recovered in the evening and night, only to be promptly made angry by startling revelations later that night.
I shall not comment on what has happened, because it is not constructive to comment on things that have already happened. I don't really know what to say actually. I'm like seriously loss for words at the speed at which things happened. All I can say is that I am not going to blame anybody, because I am bigger hearted than that.
ANYWAY, on to happier stuff. Alice turned 21! I haven't seen the XC people for ages, partly due to personal isolation or whatever. But anyway, I turned up horribly late for the dinner get together. Chit chatted and caught up with most who were there. Also listened to people deplore how horribly thin I've become, which I totally do not agree with. Think I made a fool of myself again, and also found out from Eileen (who's studying TCM in NTU) that I have a heaty pulse and extremely weak chi or something. Which is quite true because I'm most likely dying. Enjoyed a nice train ride home with my dearest junior Xinhui, where we emo-ed about University life and how difficult it has turned out to be. Got home quite late, but still it was interesting to meet up and see how everyone has changed.
OMG, if you are a fan of the musicals Wicked! and Avenue Q, you have to watch this! Trekkie and Kate Monsters singing one of the funnier songs from Wicked! Its so freakin' funny! I love the original West End cast of Avenue Q, they have so much god damn chemistry! It takes so much chemistry to be able to get this act together, the well timed hesitations and the cross fire singing. Amazing.
"Don't be offended by my frank analysis, think of it as personality dialysis!" I love this freakin' line!
Just a quick personality test. Some of you out there may have heard of it before, but I thought it's quite interesting. Here goes:
Imagine that you are a jungle explorer. One day, you decided to enter this huge jungle to explore the many different species of animals there. As you first step into the foliage of the jungle, you spot a first animal. What kind of animal is it? (My Ans: Monkey)
You proceed onwards. After trekking for a long time, you heard a sound beside you and you decided to turn to look at the source of it. What animal do you see? (My Ans: Bird)
After a whole day of exploring the jungle and seeing many different wondrous animal species, you decide to call it a day. As you walk out of the jungle, you decide to turn to look at the forest one last time. And lo and behold, there's an animal there! What animal do you see? (My Ans: Elephant)
Okay, so just think of the three animals you would see in the respective situations. The first animal is supposed to represent how you see yourself. The second animal is supposed to represent how others view you. The third animal is supposed to represent the animal that's most like you.
I find it quite accurate, because I think I do see myself as a monkey sometimes. And the whole bird thing. I think people view me as a free, independent spirit that flies around. Just like a bird. But the elephant. I dunno if its a good thing to be an elephant. Maybe it justs means I'm actually very wise, steady and down-to-earth too. Or that I'm friendly and nice but when angered will maul people to death. Which is quite true too.
This weekend's the first normal weekend that I've ever had in ages. A normal weekend without any stress, just me spending time with family, not mugging, but having fun, doing other much more constructive (and non constructive!) stuff. Be it doing house packing for the big move, to watching the finals of the Australian Open; to playing Warcraft III and shopping for tiles for the new house; to eating McDonald's and sorting old photographs. This weekend has been wonderfully, mind-bogglingly normal. And I hope it could last forever.
But it won't.
Here's to the hope that whatever normalcy that still exists in me, doesn't become extinct.
'The perfect life? Hmmmm? There is no perfection in this world. It's a cliche expression, but its the truth; thus ordinary people yearn for 'perfection' and seek it out. But what meaning is there in perfection? None. I abhor perfection. If something is perfect, then there is nothing better than it, there is no room for creation within it, it means there is no opening for talent or wisdom to enter into it. Do you understand? For us scientists, perfection is despair. Something can be more wonderful than anything that has existed thus far, but it can never be perfect. A scientist is an organism that must continually suffer under this contradiction and even find pleasure in it. In other words, you had already lost to me, the instant you uttered that crazy word, "Perfection". This is of course, assuming that you were a scientist in the first place.' - Mayuri Kurotsuchi, Captain of the 12th Shinigami Division & Head of the Shinigami Research Institute
Mayuri Kurotsuchi is one of the most perverse and creepy characters in Bleach, given the fact that he is the embodiment of what it is to be a mad scientist. He is despicable, he is immoral, he is downright crazy. But behind the madness, there lies a superior intellect and an amazingly perceptive mind. This speech of his was given in the latest manga chapter of Bleach, chapter 306 entitled 'Not Perfect is GOoD', and after reading it, I felt compiled to agree with what he says. And it applies to anyone who calls himself/herself a follower of science. We really simply can assume that we know everything that the world has to offer.
I humble myself to the all encompassing power of Science.
First thing's first: Federer lost to Djokovic! I am in a dilemma here because both are my idols in tennis! So sad for Federer, but so happy for Djokovic as well! And now, to business!
One of the many aspects that a hit anime series should have is an amazing opening song and sequence. And thats why I love Bleach, because it has amazing opening sequences with amazing songs! Take the 6th Bleach Opening, 'Alonez' by Aqua Timez (my favourite so far) for instance! Man, its one of the best opening sequence for an anime series since the release of 4th opening sequence of Full Metal Alchemist ('Rewrite' by Asian Kung Fu Generation) like over two years ago. I love both opening sequences because the scenes and images used were of amazing sequences that totally fit the dynamics of the song, and the songs chosen on both instances had power and a certain quality to it, totally capturing the essence of each series.
I know the anime of Bleach is awfully slow, but in terms of the manga chapters, I've read up to the latest chapter, which is chapter 306 & entitled 'Not Perfect is GOoD', which is way ahead of what the anime is showing right now. I must say that I love the manga more than the anime, which suffered from unnecessary filler arcs that did nothing but serve to drag story away from the main plot-lines. Thats why I prefer reading the manga online; no distractions from the main plot of Aizen and his Arrancars against Ichigo and his Shinigamis.
That said, I am absolutely fanatical over the Espada, the 10 most powerful Arrancars of Aizen's growing army. They are practically an institution on their own right! I love the politics behind them, that they are given ranks based on power (1 being the most powerful, 10 being the least of the elite ten), and how they bicker and bitch and scheme their way to the top! And the fact that we still have no idea whatsoever of the specific rankings for the top 3 Espada yet! All due to the revelation that Ulquiorra, the strongest Arrancar we've seen so far, is only the 4th ranked Espada. (My bet is that Stark is numero uno, which explains why he is so lazy in the few scenes that feature him.)
Though I am a bit disappointed that a number of the lower ranked Espadas have been killed and defeated in recent chapters, which leaves me to wonder how Aizen's army can ever be a threat to Soul Society, because if his elite warriors aren't able to defeat some of the Shinigami Captains, they absolutely have no freaking way of defeating Soul Society. But then again, Aizen has not completed the conversion of the most power hollow types (Vasto Lordes) into Arrancars yet, and I am sure that most of the current Espada now aren't of Vasto Lorde class, so we might see an evolution of the Espada into a more powerful group of 10. That and the fact that Aizen is so freakingly powerful, he could be a God or something. Yup, when he finishes building up his army of Vasto Lorde class Arrancars, then the fun will start! Woo hoo!
Apart from the whole politics of the Espada and the evolution of the Arrancar army, other interesting things that continues make me so excited about Bleach include the unveiling of more Shikais and even Bankais of the Shinigamis, and the specific extent of their powers and abilities. We still no knowledge of the abilities of most of the Shinigami Lieutenants, let alone those of the Shinigami Captains. And the fact that those with revealed Shikais could possibly learn new moves with them, or even develop new Bankais! This creates a whole new element for fans to speculate and get fanatical to! To prove my point, I was so happy when Rukia's Shikai was revealed, and that it had like multiple abilities that were quite cool! If she has such a cool Shikais, I shudder to think what some of the amazing Zanpaktou powers that are still unknowns are like! I can hardly wait!
And the Vizard! Those Shinigamis with Arrancar powers definitely have something up their sleeves. They are an element of Bleach that has so far been kept a total mystery and I am sure we would be finding alot more stuff about them. Who they are really are, who (or even what) they really fight for, the true extent of their powers etc. Again, only whole new world for us fanatics to fantasize and be fanatical over.
I should stop here right now, as I foresee that this can go on for ages because I am in a fanatical mood right now! So yes, I am off to doddle some fanart!
Medical School is supposed to be one of the elite institutions of learning. The professors here are supposed to be the best in their fields. They are supposed to make sense. Here are some of memorable quotes from some of the best NUS has to offer.
1. "(Insert drug name) is suppose to have this (insert effect) on the patient. How does it happen? It happens." -insert cue for me to roar in frustration-
2. "As you can see, I chose a picture of a rainbow as my first slide. To many people, a rainbow represents hope. This picture is very important. I place a rainbow here because for psychosis patients there is hope." -insert cue for me to roll my eyes-
3. "When you see things, they are called visual hallucinations. When you hear things, they are called auditory hallucinations. When you feel and taste things, they are called... hallucinations." -insert cue for me to slam my head on the table-
4. "What happens when a neuron dies? Well, it dies." -insert cue for me to pull my hair off-
5. "I had a good friend from medical school: he was a good doctor, came from a happy family, was well to do. He was a good friend of mine. Then one day, he committed suicide." *SMILE* -insert cue for me to stare in disbelief-
On another note, I absolutely love pathology. The pictures of damaged body parts are just so wonderful to behold! Come to daddy, baby!
"Is there anybody here It doesn't suck to be? It sucks to be me!" - 'It Sucks To Be Me', Avenue Q
Yes. The addiction persists.
Thanks to wonderful Woochiao, I now have the whole soundtrack of Avenue Q on my Ipod. And its hard to concentrate on Robbins when you have the cast telling you how much life sucks. To which I feel like telling them 'Your lives suck? I hearing you correctly?!?'
But then again, if I could choose something to distract me from studying, I'll rather it be the songs from the fantastic Avenue Q. The songs make me happy, and you realise that all your problems, don't matter, because 'Everything in life is only for now!'
"Each time you smile It'll only last awhile Life may be scary But it's only temporary" - "For Now", Avenue Q
And on another note, I find myself having less inspiration to blog. I dunno if its a bad thing actually, it just means that I have been quite satisfied with the way life's been progressing of late, so much so I have nothing much to rant or be emo about. Then again, it means that I have nothing interesting to think and contemplate about, which makes me feel weird and strange because its been the longest time since I had a heart to heart with the other person(s) lying dormant inside me. Its like I've been domesticated or something.
Avenue Q is addictive! Every night, I come home to listen to the tracks online, or watch youtube videos about it, and I laugh like nobody's business. So funny!
My favourite character is Trekkie Monster! He is so funny! I'm suddenly inspired to take up puppeteer lessons! And of course to fly to Broadway or the West End to watch Avenue Q! Woo hoo!
Thanks to Woochiao, I am addicted to songs and videos of the hit Tony Award winning broadway musical, 'Avenue Q'! As you will see later, its like an adult parody of Sesame Street. Its super hilarious, and the puppets are amazingly cute! The puppeteers are so damn talented, the lyrics are so funny and cheeky! The songs are amazing! The musical's so in-your-face, it talks about issues that everyone knows are there, but just won't talk about, stuff like racism, homosexuality and pornography! There's even a sex scene between puppets, and full puppet nudity! To get a feel of just how amazing this musical can be, just look at some of the song titles - stuff like 'It Sucks to Be Me', 'The Internet is For Porn', 'Everybody's A Little Bit Racist', 'If You Were Gay' etc. It is hilarious I tell you, and very very funny and intelligent.
The opening song: "It Sucks To Be Me' - I love the part where Christmas Eve (that's the name of the character played by the slightly punchy Japanese lady) sings 'I say it sukasukasukasuka sukasukasukasuka SUKS!' Hilarious!
Another hilarious song called "If You Were Gay"! Its quite famous actually, and what I love most of this performance is the amazing puppetry! Just look at it! Amazing! I actually feel like learning this song and singing it to some of my friends who are... erm. Yeah. Muahahahahaha!
"You're A Little Bit Racist"! When I first heard this song on Woochiao's car, I was immediately blown away because a musical that dares to talk about this sensitive topic is amazing! AMAZING! It talks about stuff that no one dares to talk about! But yeah, listen to the lyrics, it says everything it needs to.
The last number "For Now"! They only start singing til the 3rd minute or so, so fast forward if you want to! My favourite part - when the cast screams "George Bush! Its only FOR NOW!" Woo Hoo! HOW TRUE MAN! When I first heard it in Woochiao's car, I went berserk too! WAY TO GO AVENUE Q!
I can't stop singing 'It sucks to be meeeee~! It sucks to be meeeeee~!' now!
I've been watching season 2 of "The Amazing Race - Asia" on and off now. I love "The Amazing Race", its such a fabulous concept, and it really tests team's ability to work together - how they communicate, how they pluck up the guts to do crazy stunts, how they encourage each other, how they push their bodies to their physical limits and beyond. Plus you get to see different places and do things that you'll never ever do. Makes me wonder what it'll be like to go on the race too.
I've many fantasies and daydreams, and one of them is to go on the race, and I've always wondered who I'll pick to go on the race with me. Will it be a friend or a family member? If its a family member, it'll definitely be my brother, so he'll be in charge of most of the physical stuff and I'll be in charge of more on the general knowledge and information part. But I highly doubt he'll want to go on the race with me. Haha. If its a friend, I have a problem regarding who to pick. All my friends that I consider close enough to go on the race with me seem to have quirks that make them unsuitable for the race. And maybe that's the point exactly - that I know them too well to know that our team dynamics would end up quite screwed. Haha. But the thing is, I know myself too well and I know that I'm not easy to work with in stressful situations - I can be very enthusiastic about stuff when I'm in a good mood, but can become very unco-operative when I'm in a bad mood.
Come to think of it, I would probably be quite a bad team-mate. I don't really have any good qualities that would help in the race, apart from my extensive knowledge about world cultures and world geography, which could be useful in certain circumstances, a tad bit articulate, and alert for strange stuff, and at my very best, can come up with multiple ideas that may or may not work. Oh the fact that I have guts to eat strange stuff - like live octopi and squids, worms and what not. And I can drive, both manual and auto! But other than that, I don't really have any other good qualities to help in the race - I'm not physically fit, I don't have a photographic memory, I am not that street smart, and I'm not ambitious and driven to win. Maybe the best quality about me is that I'm very easy going, so if my teammate is the ambitious and outspoken kind, he can push me along as well and I won't lose my temper or what not. I'll just go along as best as I can. Makes me sound more like a burden than an asset really.
Alternatively, it'll be cool to be the host of the amazing race. You don't have to do all the crazy stuff, and yet, you can just go along for the ride. My kind of holiday. Perfect.
'Lay Your Hands On Me', which is what is possibly, the 4th season finale of Grey's Anatomy, will hence forth be the known as the one where everybody turns single.
It was the long awaited return of my favourite television serial, even though, I must admit, the long wait and depressing, messy story lines have sort of dampened my enthusiasm for the show. I find myself not as great a Grey's Anatomy fan as I was two years ago. As always, this entry is going to be laden with spoilers. *SPOILERS GALORE* people!
So where do we start? The breakdown of Bailey's marriage? The breakdown of MerDer? The breakdown of every ounce of respect I had for Derek? The breakdown of Izzie's and George's "special friendship"? (Oh wait, that was last week's episode!) The breakdown of Cristina's robotic tendencies? The breakdown of Alex's 'bad-boy' tendencies? The breakdown of Lexie's and Hahn's isolation? There's just so much to talk about.
Let's talk about Bailey's marriage. I honestly find it extremely cliche that they are rehashing the old career woman struggling with career and marriage storyline. Because, it is honestly over used, and didn't we have a similar storyline about balancing career and marriage in the Chief's own story? And didn't we already see how it ended? And now, we are having a total re visitation of that storyline, And lo and behold, its probably going to end in divorce too. How sad. But then again, this storyline is extremely realistic, and if it gave the producers to use Bailey as this week's special voice-over, then I'll live with that. Because Bailey's voice over was cool, because she's cool. And hot. All at the same time.
The breakup of MerDer. AND SO, it ends, again. Like Rachel and Ross from Friends, these two soul mates are once again, separated from each other. I was reading online forums the other day and someone actually counted the number of episodes that Mer and Der where actually a couple, and believe it or not, these two were only an official couple in around 19 out of over 80 odd episodes. Like what the heck? And now, they have broken up again. Its quite sad really. And Derek really ended up in my bad books today - What is up with Rose? I can't stand her, she honestly looks like a horse. And the two of them have zero chemistry. But anyway, I think Derek's a real disappointment, and all this is nothing of Mer's fault - the whole idea of building a house together just after she said that she didn't want him to date other people is totally off and completely illogical. He is jumping the gun. And after Mer says she doesn't want to build a house with him, he goes off and asks horse-faced Rose out for dinner. Like wtf? He just wants someone to fit that role of loving girlfriend for him. Just wait for Mer to be ready, you piece of shit.
So George's mom thinks he is going to hell because he broke off his marriage to Callie, and he committed adultery. Well, guess what? I think he is going to hell too! But I never knew Momma O'Malley is such a traditional woman. And now the whole George-Izzie thing seems to be spiraled out of control and completely destroyed already. Which is good. But I foresee that George is going to move in with Lexie and they'll end up hooking up and sleeping together, because despite George's appearance, he's also a player, and has managed to become friends and then sleep with three attractive girls in Seattle Grace hospital. O'Lexie is just waiting to be born.
Cristina has feelings. For a baby no less. I think this aspect of Cristina's really like me. I do not like children, and at this point of time, I do not foresee me ever having children of my own. Just like Cristina. But then again, when the time calls for me to show some heart to poor injured/sick children, I'll still let my feelings show. Because sick children and the sick elderly are the two kinds of patients that deserve the most care and don't deserve being in the state that they are in. And whoever said Cristina is a robot is so wrong because her relationship with Burke proved to all of us that she's far from being a mechanical robot - she's passionate and fierce about her feelings as well. So she rocks my socks. Big time.
So Alex has a dark secret that he isn't willing to share. Dark dark secret that turned him from a sweet boy to a bad man. We'll just wait and see if he's going to spill. And how many of you saw hints of a return of the fabulous Alex-Izzie coupling at the end of the episode? Its so obvious that Alex will always have a soft spot for Izzie and I think they were actually meant for each other. Just that lots of strange people like Denny and George turned up along the way. Maybe it'll be the second MerDer! Who knows.
And finally, Lexie's no longer so alone anymore, with Mer being semi-sisterly to her and George 'proposing' that they stay together. Which is about time, because the poor girl's been alone for far too long. And Hahn finding a friend in Callie. I love Callie, because she's a girl who is so natural and not afraid of being herself, no matter how abrasive and drastic she may be. And Hahn's also somewhat similar - she's also unafraid of offending people with her no nonsense attitude, like how she did to Miranda. She's obnoxious, but she does it with style. Sassy. So Callie and Hahn - going to be just like Callie and Addy (who is sorely missed!) I think.
That's all for Grey's watch this week. Til the next episode (or even season!). Time to start packing for the big move. Sigh.
I'm in a very bad state right now. My mouth's full of ulcers and my right eye is acting up again. Its hard to enjoy my post Bacteriology break because come Monday, studying for pathology STARTS. Yet here I am feeling like shit. All I can do is to listen to my favourite songs to keep my mind off the fact that my eye feels like its being gnawed by ants, and to resist the urge to scratch it or even rip it out of my socket and crush it into a million fragments. I'm trying not to scratch it or even put any eye drops, because I suspect I'm allergic to eye drops - my eye swelled after I placed a few drops of the concoction on it. I have no idea how I managed to fall asleep last night, when it was like swollen and threatening to pop out of my socket. Its a miracle I didn't freak out or anything. One and a half years in medical school does imbue some level of tolerance for grossness around you, even if the matter at hand happens to be your own eye.
I hope its not an infection or anything, because one and a half years in medical school have also taught me that infections to the eye can be horribly nasty. I could end up blind or even worse, have a disseminated infection that spreads to other parts of the body. The most unfortunate thing that could happen is death. But honestly, I'm more afraid of being blind than dying. Don't ask me why. I just feel that way.
Considering the state of my health, it is easy to conclude that I am not in the best of moods right now. I apologize if I have been snappish or uninterested or just sullen when I am around people. Its just that its not possible to be happy when you have been suffering from sleepless nights due to a mis-behaving eye - you wake up all tired and frustrated that you are just not getting any quality sleep. Plus my mouth's full of ulcers - which makes it difficult to even eat or talk, let alone smile and laugh.
I can't even sing along with my favourite songs now. That seriously pisses me of, because I listen to music and sing out loud when I am angry or frustrated or stress, and right now, I am just not getting any happy vibes following through my system.
Concerning other matters: Bacteriology CA wasn't very good. I think majority of the cohort thought it was better than the virology one, but I didn't think it was much simpler or anything. I wrote rubbish and would just be happy with a pass. So stop bugging me about how easy it was already.
We had lectures after the CA, which was a real kill joy or a good distraction from it all, depending on where you stand. I think its so sad that we could just transition like that, as if the holidays didn't actually happen. But after lectures, there was a surprised outing initiated by Sara and Shihui and a few of us went to Sara's new house for an impromptu house warming. Stayed there for awhile before leaving early because it was my mom's birthday and I had dinner then.
Had a nice dinner out with the family last night, at some fancy restaurant that served delicious Cantonese cuisine. I tasted one of the best double-boiled wintermelon soups ever! I am a soup lover so I was very very happy last night. Then the whole eye swelling thing happened and made me pissed off for the rest of the night.
I was reminded of the song above when we went to Sara's house yesterday. So yeah, its been stuck in my head and that's why its there.
And as the countdown to my third ever microbiology CA begins, I start to wonder just how porous my brain really is. This is the second time in medical school where I feel that I know nothing about the subject matter of the upcoming paper. (The first was the first CA for anatomy in M1.)
I hate this feeling of knowing that you studied but somehow or another, it wouldn't make a difference at all because whatever you read, doesn't really register in your brain. Its not a good feeling, definitely not, and its honestly, a feeling that doesn't really manifest too often for me. Yes, I will forget stuff when I study, but not to the extent where my brain feels empty inside.
I know certain people out there think that bacteria are cuddly and cute, but, right now, at this very moment, I feel that Bacteriology really sucks. There are just too many strange sounding names and incoherent, confusing details that its enough to make the horror that was virology look nice. But then, I actually enjoyed virology. But I'm finding it hard to conjure any inkling of love for bacteria and its purulent ilk.
I have a few more bacteriology tables to go through, but I am reluctant to do so because I know, that at this point in time, nothing is going to stay in my brain, EVEN if it makes sense! AND that is the infuriating thing about it all - that I can be made to appear so stupid when I am NOT.
I will most probably fail the paper tomorrow. To quote some random stranger, 'It's an honor to die at your hands.'
My mom and brother are both back from the USA! And they brought me loads of presents! On top of that, I finally got my Ipod Classic! Woo-hoo!
Went with my dad to pick them up from the airport today. My mom was actually on the same flight as Vic Zhou aka 仔仔 of F4 fame, so there was a HUGE barricade where we were waiting. I had no idea what the commotion about, and rather stupidly chose to walk through the barricade with my half eaten double mushroom swiss in hand, when (talk about bad timing!), Mr 仔仔 decided to choose that exact moment to make his grand entrance into Singapore! So there I was, like a deer caught in front of a pair of glaring headlights, frozen with shock as a mad crowd of screaming girls came stampeding in my direction. For the next few minutes or so, I was caught in the mess of human body parts, struggling to squeeze out of the crowd without losing the precious remnants of my lunch, all the while cursing Mr Zhou's (and my very own) bad timing.
It was a good thing that Mr Zhou seemed rather embarrassed at the reception he got, and decided not to stay overtly long at the arrival hall. Instead, he was efficiently whisked away by a overly excessive entourage of security guards and policemen, through the barricade to the get away car at the entrance of the arrival hall, made for his disposal. And upon his quick exit, the ravenous crowd of girls disappeared after him as well. Which was for the better because I swear, if the crowd had gathered for another minute more or so, I would have given up and just smashed my half eaten burger into the mouth of the nearest screeching woman.
Since today's the day where my mom and brother arrive home, I decided to forgo mugging today, a kind of self-proclaimed holiday if you will! So I had a whole day of meddling with my Ipod, of watching TV, eating the goodies from America, and marveling at the amount of stuff my mom bought, and snickering as my brother recounted the exasperation he faced as he tried to stop my mother from buying even more over the top stuff. Granted that she bought more than 15 shirts for me, but some of the stuff she bought were holy redundant - stuff like rugs, frames, soap holders etc. But oh well, I guess women will always be women. Made to spend money.
And to wrap off this entry, lets have a Japanese song! A first on this blog! This happens to be the 6th opening of the Bleach Anime series, an extremely nice J-rock song called 'ALONES' by AquaTimez. I love the song, but unfortunately, my Japanese is so elementary that I cannot make out a single thing that the song is saying. Anyone with the song in mp3 format, please contact me and pass it to me to put on my Ipod! Arigato-gozaimasu!
DAMN THE VIDEO'S GOOD. I love the way they used all the footages of important historical events and people... it really puts perspective to the whole evolution of modern society and the screwed up journey mankind has so far embarked upon. And the last few images of Hilary and Obama - there's no knowing what the future holds if either wins the US presidency. Again, this begs the question of where we are all headed to: the depths of inferno and hell, or even greater heights. This song is most defintiely going to be my theme for 2008.
"I believe the world is burning to the ground Oh well, I guess We're gonna find out Let's see how far we've come
I believe its all is coming to an end Oh well, I guess We're gonna pretend Let's see how far we've come" - "How Far We've Come", Matchbox Twenty
Fantastic NEW song by Matchbox Twenty! I love Matchbox Twenty, so any new album by them, even if its a greatest hits album, is good news to me. Just so happens the lyrics sorta fit the fact that its a new year right now. Okay, maybe they are a tab bit apocalyptic, but if you don't read it literally, you'll see that its actually really about taking stock of what we've done so far. And that's exactly what you do every time a new year comes.
I just woke up from staying up all night. 2008 has so far, been pretty much surreal. The last few hours of 2007, and the first few hours of 2008, was spent facing old demons, exploring new possibilities, reliving old memories and embracing new beginnings.
Ironically, one of the last things I did for 2007 was watch a rather depressing film about the end of the world. It wasn't the best film to watch on new year's eve, because it makes you fatalistic and wanna kill yourself because you wonder if there's ever any hope for mankind in the future. Plus 'I Am Legend' is a terrifying thriller, because of the resonating loneliness it generates. While not as gory as '28 Weeks Later', it was infinitely more terrifying because it plays with your mind. It plays on the very human fear of loneliness, it plays on human fears of being alone: one person against a whole army of flash eating zombies. A clever film that was intelligently crafted! While the ending of the movie is a tab bit anticlimactic, the film is a good one because of its intense ability to thrill and raise the heightened sense of fear in you. The scene in the dark cellar, where we first encounter said zombies was particularly frightening. *shudder* Watch it if you love horror thrillers, or if you love Will Smith, because the star is fantastic as the conflicted military doctor hero who struggles between trying to find a cure and adapting to the emptiness of being alone. (On another hand, don't watch it if you love dogs more than you love humans!)
After watching the movie, I made my way, rather depressed and angsty, to Yisheng's house for 71's countdown get together. Played the usual drinking games, charades, mahjong, watched them play gross Indian Poker. Talked alot. And miraculously, I didn't sleep at all. Kheng Wee and I then drove the class to West Coast McDonald's for breakfast at like 5 something in the morning. After that, made my way back in the dawn, to go back to sleep til now.
2007 was a trying year, but definitely a year where I grew up by that little bit. Here's to a more fruitful (and safe!) 2008 to come! Cheers!
P.S.: A new year deserves a new blog skin. Something darker and more eerie because I've been inspired by both 'I Am Legend' and 'How Far We've Come'. Something hellish, because I believe, it all, is coming to an end. Yeah. =]
Name: voldemort33
XY, 01/06/1987, s'porean typical geminian free-thinker moody & eccentric thinks far too much for his own good med student (be afraid. be very afraid!) demon45_6f@hotmail.com
crazy craves
music (jazz, rock and lounge) day-dreaming drawing & photography animals (sheep!) chocolate and tea! seafood, noodles and soup!
pet peeves
noisy crowds over-possessive, insecure, whiny people two-faced hypocrites housework and homework being called 'rich' rushing to do stuff crying, pesky kids
deepest darkest desires! (aka wishlist!)
to be a doctor (with a heart of gold!) a dog my own condo apartment a driving license and my own four wheel drive my own comic line someone to hug
