I can't believe that I spent the last... hour and a half blog surfing. Just scrolling through various people's archives... not because I wanted to read about their lives (which, I am sure would be very interesting, but now's not the time, especially when I have my books and notes on the table right in front of me, staring at me as if they were breathing down my necks...) but looking for those good old blog quizzes/lists/thingies.
You know... those blasted lists of questions? Which people circulate via e-mail and stuff, and then start tagging each other to do? Those blasted lists of tons and tons of never-ending, often infuriating, meaningless questions? That once started, is gonna waste like at least an hour of your time, answering and answering questions... while you struggle to come up with interesting answers when your mind is already quite dead.
Yeah. I was looking for those kind of stuff. I must be crazy, because, I know that once I start doing one of those lists, I'm gonna take forever and then, my books will really kill me. But I dunno, it just hit me that I've not touched a blog list, or quiz for that matter, for quite sometime now. There used to be a time when my blog was filled with such things. Nowadays, you hardly find them on people's blogs, its like they went extinct or something.
Needless to say, I failed quite miserably in finding a quiz/list to do. So yes, in conclusion, I wasted an hour or so, trying to find something for me to waste time doing. Not bad, not bad.
I don't feel like doing any studying today because of the intense amount of work I did yesterday. I covered the whole of upper limb in one freaking day, and I'm quite traumatized by that. Accomplished, yes, but traumatized as well. And today, I'm supposed to finish Blood and start a little on DNA. But I just feel like resting, and that's the problem about such schedules. You created them, and you just have to stick to them. Or else... well. It'll be like, pointless that you created one in the first place.
Oh oh! I was watching ER yesterday when one of the attendings at the hospital, Dr Mark Greene asked a bunch of medical students, while handling a patient who had a fractured wrist, about the anatomical snuff box. He asked 'anyone can tell me what bones make up the floor of the anatomical snuff box?' and the students didn't know the answer! And guess what? I DID! So I became damn high and started shouting the answer. But then the funny thing happened, Dr Greene said 'don't know the answer? its the navicular bone.' To which I went, "NOOOOOOO!" BECAUSE EVERY FREAKING M1 student who has lived through the past 8 months of medical school would know that the answer to his question is THE SCAPHOID and TRAPEZIUM bones! NOT THE NAVICULAR! Because you know why? BECAUSE THE NAVICULAR BONE IS FOUND IN THE FOOT! NOT IN THE WRIST! WOO-HOO! I KNEW MY ANATOMY! AND THE HEAD OF THE ER IN COUNTY GENERAL HOSPITAL DIDN'T! WOO-HOO! (which left me feeling very pleased about myself, but then he went on to treat some other patients in a state of cardiac arrest and then said some load of jibberish, so much so I immediately felt quite stupid again.)
But anyway, its just a little anecdote ( I think it would qualify as one...no?) for all my medical school friends out there. There's actually some point in all this mugging. Some level of it has managed to sink in and stay in our brains. We are getting better and smarter at this. The day will come where we'll be the ones scaring future med students with all the strange talk about 'saline' and 'dopamine' and 'CT scans, blood gas, portable X-rays STAT'.
Sigh.
I still have the urge to do some quizzes and blog lists. Anyone with stuff like that, please recommend me. Will probably do it tomorrow or tonight, as long as I at least manage to finish my revision on Blood.
Oh and I've gotten back to my old habit of watching tons and tons of MTV in the morning. I remember my study break days in secondary school and JC, was all about watching the MTV channel in the morning. Haha. Brainless entertainment. All the music videos, some of them so bad and just can't watch it. Hahahahah. All the expletives and violence, all the (sometimes) bad singing and rapping. All the senseless punk rock bands (there are JUST so many of them these days. I can't stand them! Whatever happened to all the soft rock/emo rock/non-punk rock bands?) Bet you guys didn't know one of my former fantasies was to be an MTV VJ? But I bet I'm too short to even qualify for auditions. Muahahahahhaha.
I better leave now. That's already quite a lot of time wasted.
Its the last day of my study break weekend. Woo-hoo. I'm supposed to have come out of this feeling more prepared for my CAs which start tomorrow, but somehow, I seem to have come out of this four days feeling more disillusioned and confused instead. Nothing seems to make sense anymore. I don't really know what I doing and why I'm doing this. Doesn't seem worthed it at all.
But then you watch medical dramas like Grey's and ER and then you get it. You get what you are doing, you get why you are doing it, you get it all. Its so simple. You are doing all this so that one day, you can do what the characters do on medical dramas; have a hell of an exciting, dirty, busy day, saving and making a difference to the lives of others. So maybe thats why I insist on watching so many medical dramas these days - to constantly remind myself why I'm doing this. To remind myself that that kind of life, is what I'm working so hard to achieve and obtain. And that one day, no matter how tough or long the road may be, I'll still cross the finishing line.
I wish I could be less neurotic about so many different things in life. I wish I could be one of those people, who could easily separate fun and work. I wish I could be one of those people, who could be happy even when they are feeling sad, who could be calm even when they are feeling anxious, who can take every single punch thrown at them without flinching. I wish I were a lot of things, but this world ain't perfect, and wishing is just about the only way I can ever come close to being things that I ain't meant to be.
So let's get it rollin'. Its the last stretch people! Good luck and seeya all tomorrow! _________________________________________________________________
Ah shit, I'm such a blog-whore. A rather depressing song from Snow Patrol called 'Make This Go On Forever' once again featured in Grey's Anatomy. I get so much of my music inspiration from Grey's that I don't know what would happen if I stop watching it. Absolutely no more source of emo/indie songs. Anyway, this was featured in season 3, episode 15 - Walk On Water. The ending is tragic, perfect for such a dark and depressing song.
"And I don't know where to look My words just break and melt Please just save me from this darkness Please just save me from this darkness"
Weekend mornings are just about the most non-existent times in the world. Its just impossible to get anything done. For starters, you wake up late. Its like a natural reflex or something, the body JUST knows if its a weekend, and would then adjust its internal body clock to make you wake up at a much later time than when you would normally be up. Then there's the amazing platter of TV shows on air on a weekend morning. There's cartoons, there are repeats of taiwanese variety shows, there's a whole ER marathon for BOTH Saturday and Sunday mornings. Its no wonder I don't actually get any work done on weekend mornings. Haha.
Anyway... I did what I swore to do yesterday, which was to play two extremely long rounds of AOE3. Two free-for-alls, two battles of me building huge powerful armies and pounding the opponents into mush. I love it when my cannons fire and hit some opponents army or (even better!) villagers; then they give a mighty big shriek and get thrown into the air and fly over like ten feet, before crashing down and that's it - they're dead. Okay, I know the whole chunk up there sounded weird. But heh, that's how I unwind, either blog angry entires, listen to sad, melancholic music, or play video games where I get to, single-handedly slaughter whole civilisations with cannons and guns.
Watched ER this morning. Its up to season 3 already! Woo-hoo. Just another 9 more seasons to go before I manage to catch up with the latest season that's still airing on American TV right now. Haha. Anyway, my favourite character, the medical student John Carter just graduated in one of the episodes! So he's now John Carter, M.D.! And that was the title for the finale of season 2. It was kinda nice to see him finally being called as a Doctor. No more 'Mr.Carter', everyone calls him 'Dr. Carter' now. And his mentor gave him a labcoat with the words 'John Carter, M.D.' printed on it. His first lab-coat as a Doctor. Pretty neat huh. But of course, his first day as an intern was a disaster. Haha. He had tons of blood splurting at him, and had to handle both the ICU and the ER. Makes me shudder thinking about my future as a clueless houseman. Sigh.
Oh I love this song by 五月天. The tune isn't much, but I love the lyrics.
"世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹 / 什麼是真实 为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑 / 买一杯果汁 就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙 / 活过一辈子 也要分分秒秒年年日日 / 全心守护你 最小的事（最重要的事)" - 最重要的小事 by 五月天 So erm, sweet right? Bittersweet maybe. But yeah, I think its very meaningful.
The MVs extremely draggy though, just skip the first and last min or so to get to the song proper.
Sigh. I think I shall stop and go do some studying now.
Name: voldemort33
XY, 01/06/1987, s'porean typical geminian free-thinker moody & eccentric thinks far too much for his own good med student (be afraid. be very afraid!) demon45_6f@hotmail.com
crazy craves
music (jazz, rock and lounge) day-dreaming drawing & photography animals (sheep!) chocolate and tea! seafood, noodles and soup!
pet peeves
noisy crowds over-possessive, insecure, whiny people two-faced hypocrites housework and homework being called 'rich' rushing to do stuff crying, pesky kids
deepest darkest desires! (aka wishlist!)
to be a doctor (with a heart of gold!) a dog my own condo apartment a driving license and my own four wheel drive my own comic line someone to hug
