| Saturday, 31 May 2008 |
| its the holidays! |
In a blink of an eye, a 7 week course has come and gone. Yup. The Clinical Skills Foundation Course is finally over. I guess we are supposed to come out of it feeling like we are indeed on the right path of becoming a good doctor, but unfortunately, today's OSCE assessment made me realise that I'm far from being a competent doctor, let alone a good one. Yup. I'm now feeling like I just came out of a tiring 7 weeks without learning anything at all.
Nonetheless, its the official end of M2, and the start of M3 beckons in just 3 weeks time. M2 has been a blur. All I remember about it was loads of tests and mugging, loads of inter-personal traumas, loads of tiring days and nights trying to settle things that shouldn't and didn't actually need settling. Life could have been better, but now that I've lived through one of the worse years in Medical school, I feel like life, has been splendidly okay. But then again, if you ask me if I feel more prepared to be a doctor after two years in medicine, I'll tell you that 'no, I do not feel more prepared to be a doctor.' I'm still in a total haze about what is right and wrong, what is expected and not expected of us, what is happening and what is not. Its still a long long way before any of us become someone confident enough to stand out there and BE a doctor. Its still a long way indeed.
 Today was spent rotting outside. We watched a beautiful movie called 'Accuracy of Death', starring Takeshi Kaneshiro, in which he was a Shinigami tasked with the job of judging if a person gets to die now or not. It is a brilliant movie about the importance of life and death and makes you think about what the important things in life are. What is your purpose, and have you achieved it? I think its something we should all ponder before death comes to claim us.
And Takeshi Kaneshiro is really bloody delectable. I have no idea why the OG girls prefer Takuya Kimura over him. I think Takeshi is the Asian version of Johnny Depp, and he acts with a kind of nonchalance and flamboyance. He was surprisingly good in this film as the rather innocent and naive Shinigami, who has a strong liking for music and a complete misunderstanding about humans. He was funny when it mattered, and delightful morose when the occasion calls for some serious emo-ing. All in all, he acted really well and it was a marvelous performance.
It was a good movie, the first movie I've watched in ages. My kind of movie because it was thought provoking and rather deep. All in all, definitely a movie I'll recommend, but I suggest you don't watch it if you can't stand slow movies.
After that, it was long time spent slacking around, eating and just chatting. Its been ages since I had a good chat with anyone, let alone so many different people from the OG. I think we had a great time together, exploring so many interesting topics. The greatest surprise of the day was Darryl, who turned out to be a love guru of sorts. Highly, highly shocking. I think we got so high from the chatting that we sort of lost track of the time because we only left Junction 8 at 2330. But still, it was a good day well spent.
Tomorrow's the big day. I'm feeling slightly sianified over all the stuff I have to do and slightly pissed with myself for taking on this undertaking, seeing as to how I hate administrative stuff, but oh well. I have to just suck it up and just live through it and try to be happy about it. Afterall, tomorrow's supposed to be my day.
And yes, the conclusion I got from today is that I may have gotten so used to being single that I don't really want to look for a relationship anymore, and I'm so glad that I'm not the only one who feels this way. Yeah.
Quote of the day: 'What do you think about death?'Labels: friends, movie, quotes, school |
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| Saturday, 17 May 2008 |
| Masterful Mendelssohn |
“Don’t wonder why people go crazy. Wonder why they don’t. In the face of all we can lose in a day, in an instant, wonder what the hell it is that makes us hold it together.” - Meredith Grey
Watched the 'Masterful Mendelssohn' concert by SSO today. My first ever SSO concert! I wouldn't even watch it if it wasn't for David, who suddenly called me on Wednesday asking if I wanted to watch it with him because he now had free tickets left over by her crazy sister (who wanted to mug for some GP TEST! PREPOSTEROUS!) Though highly suspicious as to why he didn't invite a girl with him instead, I was free anyway and decided that it'll be a nice, classy change to a Saturday evening that would otherwise be spent stoning at my grandma's again, so I took the arrow and flew along with it.
I've learnt from past experience that Symphony concerts can be... erm... sleep inducing. While I've never ever slept in a concert before (due to my incredible ability to let my mind wander when I am bored), I know that Symphony concerts are somewhat of a blind shot: if you are lucky and you attend one that features songs that you are familiar with, then you are probably in for a threat. But then again, if you end up in one with songs that you are completely unfamiliar with, you are entirely at the mercy of the orchestra's interpretation of the songs - you either get it, or you don't. So in what was an incredibly courageous move on my part, I decided to watch a concert which did not even feature a single song that I am familiar with. But what the heck, its always fun to take risks anyway.
Had dinner with David and later, the two of us met up with Woochiao who was, by a total stroke of good luck and coincidence, watching a Malay musical next door! I seriously wonder if Woochiao got anything out of it! He must have felt so strange to be the only Chinese member of the audience! Anyway, we had a nice time chatting and catching up before both our respective performances started. Boy, I missed dear old Woochiao and his wisecracks. I think the most important thing though was that David and I came up with conclusions that sigh, are unfortunately true.
I must say that David has good taste in music. He correctly predicted that the first half of the concert was going to be exciting, while the second half was something that we could just entirely skip. He was so bloody right. The first half of the concert had an amazing symphony by this composer called Prokofiev, who according to David, was this eccentric man who composed new aged styles in a classical way (whatever that means!) But the symphony was fantastic. It was exciting, exuberant, and very very eclectic! And then came Mendelssohn's Violin Concerto in E minor, which according to David, was sort of a basic piece that all violinist had to play. It was also a very nice piece, with extremely delightful melodies. I felt like the night wasn't a total waste after all!
Then came the second half of the concert, which featured a 38 minutes symphony by Sibelius. Oh my god, it was a horror to sit through. I nearly died. I kept myself occupied half the time by staring at the ceiling and imagining scenes of carnage and fear if a phantom ala the Phantom of the Opera was to appear in the middle of the concert and bring down the giant ceiling lights onto the audience. The symphony was just noise. I think we should have listened to David's suggestion and left during the intermission.
The last piece left me exhausted and caused me to crawl my way back home. After a quick shower and lots of other administrative work, I finally blogged this entry and went to bed. A wonderful night of class and culture well spent.Labels: music, quotes |
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| Saturday, 10 May 2008 |
| we all rush to lay the tracks |
I think its scary that time seems to be flitting pass too quickly.
And its even scarier when you realize that you have lots of things on your plate to settle before time catches up with you.
With just another 3 more weeks, we would come to the month of June and I will turn 21.
This heralds the end of CSFC and the start of M3, which means I have approximately 3 more weeks to get my history taking and physical examination skills up to scratch.
It also means that I have 3 more weeks to settle everything for my birthday party, which is another chore because, even up til now, the guest list isn't confirmed because there are still people who have not replied to my invites. And now, with the fact that I'm also going on a trip to Japan in June, I have to start planning and researching on what to see, where to go and what to do in the Land of the Rising Sun. So yeah, 3 weeks to do everything. Should be hell lots of fun.
Its the weekend! Time to try cramping in loads of reading.
Now for a shower and lunch, and then I shall attempt to do some reading before dinner tonight.
I wish I could be cryptic about some stuff, but I seem to have lost the ability to use my words subtly and properly. So I think I should just shut up and stop typing before I shoot myself in the foot or bite myself in the tongue. I think its a good thing I'm less emo these days, because I've sorta gotten over the fact that fatigue and exhaustion are just going to be loyal companions of mine for the rest of my dear life. And I swore to myself that I shall complain less and be more proactive. I can do this, I will steer the course of my own life with my own bare hands.
"There is no darkness but ignorance!" - AnonLabels: life, quotes, randomness |
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| Friday, 25 April 2008 |
| the pillars of medicine |
Thank god for the end of the writers' strike. Today, I spent the afternoon watching the first new episodes of the dramas 'Grey's Anatomy' and 'Brothers & Sisters' to be produced in months. And I've got to say, the producers of these series are back in a vengeance. The quality of this week's episodes are some of the best seen this season, especially so for 'Grey's'. This week's episode was just a right dose of humour and drama, and sorta correlates with what we, as medical students, are currently going through right now. I loved it.
"The 4 pillars of medicine are anatomy, physiology, pathology and the art of conning patients" - Anon
And speaking of what we are going through right now, the second week of CSFC has finally come to an end, and we end it off with the release of the results of our year 2 finals. So I'm officially a M3 student now! (Sigh!) I must admit I was very disillusioned with what I was doing when I was shadowing some big shot Orthopaedics surgeon in clinics yesterday. Just seeing the way he treats his patients made me feel like whatever we are doing now is of absolutely NO use at all.
All those stuff about communicating with the patient, of feeling empathy with patients, of treating them as respectable human beings, really seem like crap taught to us to ensure that the faculty gets its butt covered when members of the public complain about the crudeness of the doctors being produced by the local University.
I guess each and everyone of us medical students has to start thinking about what kind of doctor you want to end up being. What kind of doctor are you really determined to be? You see all those really good doctors in television programmes, who are compassionate, yet professional at the same time, and you keep telling yourself that you really want to end up like them. But the truth is, that kind of person only exists in television programmes. Doctors in the real world rarely come in that perfect sort of balance. They are either too professional, or too compassionate, with absolutely no in betweens.
Everyday in CSFC, I question the kind of doctor, the kind of person I want to be, because everyday in clinics, you see how other people act, you see how your mentors and tutors behave, you see how your peers and colleagues change, and you see the wide spectrum of patients present in society and its kinda hard not to be influenced and changed by all that you soak in.
There are times where I really want to try to be compassionate and nice to my patients, but there are also times where I tell myself that its much easier to be strictly professional and emotionless when dealing with them. To be involved or detached, where do you draw the line?
I met this nice little sweet old lady in the clinics. She was staying in my base ward and I regret not getting to know her earlier. I've been going back and forth to talk to her since Tuesday, and today, she got discharged. I was lucky to catch her while she was preparing to leave and coincidentally, I was leaving the hospital while she left it as well. She was a lovely patient, and the first in what is hopefully going to be a long list of favourite patients to come. I hope she'll keep her health at tip top condition, and I hope to never ever have to see her in the hospital again, but some part of me will miss her, and hopes to see her in a non hospital setting or something.
I have another three years to figure out what kind of doctor I want to be. Whatever it is, I hope not to be an overly lousy one.Labels: brothers and sisters, clinics, grey's anatomy, quotes |
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| Monday, 14 April 2008 |
| time to stand up and grow up |
'Come grow old with me, for the best is yet to be..." - Robert Browning
So today marks the start of my clinical skills foundation course. To those few non-medical students friends of mine who still read this long forsaken blog, this means that I've finally started taking that big leap forward into the dark and twisty world of clinical medicine. The next 7 weeks will be an extensive (& long-drawn) orientation to the often confusing and exhausting life in the clinics. No doubt I'll probably have lots more to complain, moan and whine about in the upcoming years as I enter what is arguably the most important stage of my medical career, the sheer exhilaration of being involved in clinical work more than justifies the intense craziness that clinical life would bring.
With regards to my feelings about the clinical years, I must say that as of now, I am rather excited about the upcoming lessons. I know many of my peers expressed fear of the upcoming big transition into clinical life - they are all freaked out by the sheer amount of work to do, the amount of facts and skills to learn, the need to interact with patients, and the need to survive the politics of the hospital hierarchy. I strangely do not share much of their concerns at all, except maybe the politics part. But then again, my mind doesn't register things the way normal people would, so perhaps it isn't that strange for me not to feel any fear at all.
In the upcoming weeks, I would be involved in clerking patients, taking their histories and learning how to do basic physical examinations on patients. I would also start to learn the basics of various other clinical skills and procedures, such as venepuncture, intubations, catheterisations, intramuscular injections, intravenous drips etc. All I can say is that I'm ready for whatever comes my way; whether NUH and the patients are ready for me or not... now that's altogether a totally different question.
Anybody interested in allowing me to practice blood pressure taking (and various other clinical skills) on them should contact me ASAP via either SMS or emails. If you don't already have my contact information, then you really shouldn't even consider volunteering yourself for such potentially devastating torture. Hehe.Labels: clinics, quotes, school |
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| Thursday, 27 March 2008 |
| 大将军? 小王子? |
"不要觉得他看起来斯斯文文，一幅很容易被欺负的样子. 他虽然像是一位小王子,但他其实是一位大将军, 发起狠来, 是决对不会心软的. 他看上的土地, 就是要定它, 若没得到手的话, 他就会用千方百计设法把它拿下. 所以你还是少去惹他好了..."
真的很想放弃一切, 不要再继续读下去了. 每天就是在读一些乱七八糟，超复杂，超无聊的鬼东西, 真的好想把书丢下, 完全都不想去管它, 只想躺着发呆. 但一想到这样很可能会有害得我得留级, 一时的冲动就会消失不见, 最后还是会带着很不愿意的心情, 回去翻开一些课本, 继续乖乖地读书.
自己毕竟是一个没胆子的人, 很多时候想做的事, 未必是自己敢去做的.
但是讲真的啦, 做事一定要有决心 , 不能有三分钟热度, 而这是我真的还未拥有的生活做习, 所以做很多事都往往经营到一半, 就会放弃不干了. 这样的生活态度, 也太对不起自己和大家了吧!
突然间还是觉得精神科是我应该选的专科. 以我这样的个性, 是完全没有当内科的耐性, 也没有当外科的霸气, 还是做回只需要讲很多话的精神科吧!
不过, 一切还是先把考试考好再说.... 嘿嘿.
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| Friday, 21 March 2008 |
| 'i'll rather have a bagle' |
Its the final week before the start of our 2nd pros. Things have progressed in remarkably strange pace this week. There were days were nothing much was achieved, and days were progress was so unbelievable that I had to start doubting if anything ever seeped into that cerebrum of mine. And then there was the minor shock I had today, when I work up to find both my parents at home - for a moment, I thought that I had miscalculated the days left and that it was Sunday already. Turns out that today was a public holiday. Wow, like that would do wonders for my social calendar.
Yesterday was quite a blur. It was a day spent trying to recover from the sleep debt accumulated from staying up all night at Xiuzhen's 21st birthday party, and trying to do some amount of substantial studying to cover the horrific loss in study time for the preparation of the party itself. I don't really know how I did it, but in a strange twist of fate, it was the one day where I made the most progress so far in terms of studying. Must be the stress and pressure boring down on me then, granting me unprecedented powers in the field of focusing and concentration. Well, whatever it was I'm really thankful for it because it helped to force me to pick up the slack.
Anyway, I'm trying to study antibiotics and anti-fungal and anti-parasitic agents right now. Yes, I'm studying pharmacology again. It appears that I also develop a sudden urge to blog when I'm studying pharmacology. Must be all the pent up frustration and boredom with the subject.
Quote of the week: 'Happiness is a thumb and a wet blanket.'- Linus van Pelt
I shall now go to shower to attempt to make my continual mugging of antimicrobials more comfortable.Labels: quotes, randomness, school |
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| Sunday, 9 March 2008 |
| Drink up, me hearties, yo ho! |
"Me? I'm dishonest, and a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest. Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly... stupid." - Captain Jack Sparrow
Captain Jack Sparrow is SO entertaining! And Johnny Depp really is the most talented actor to have ever lived. There are actors who are just men pretending to be someone else, and then, there are actors who are really actors, men who live the characters that they are portraying, men who communicate with the characters they are portraying, men who really breathe life into characters that were moments before, just merely words describing who they really were. Johnny Depp is one such actor, and actors of such caliber are really really hard to come by. Which is why he is my favourite character, because all the quirky characters he portrays NEVER FAILS TO AMAZE ME AND MAKE WANT TO PLAY THE CHARACTER AS WELL!
This man deserves at least 5 Oscars! SO START GIVING THEM TO HIM ALREADY!Labels: fanboy, movie, quotes |
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| Monday, 21 January 2008 |
| this is what they teach us in med school |
Medical School is supposed to be one of the elite institutions of learning. The professors here are supposed to be the best in their fields. They are supposed to make sense. Here are some of memorable quotes from some of the best NUS has to offer.
1. "(Insert drug name) is suppose to have this (insert effect) on the patient. How does it happen? It happens." -insert cue for me to roar in frustration-
2. "As you can see, I chose a picture of a rainbow as my first slide. To many people, a rainbow represents hope. This picture is very important. I place a rainbow here because for psychosis patients there is hope." -insert cue for me to roll my eyes-
3. "When you see things, they are called visual hallucinations. When you hear things, they are called auditory hallucinations. When you feel and taste things, they are called... hallucinations." -insert cue for me to slam my head on the table-
4. "What happens when a neuron dies? Well, it dies." -insert cue for me to pull my hair off-
5. "I had a good friend from medical school: he was a good doctor, came from a happy family, was well to do. He was a good friend of mine. Then one day, he committed suicide." *SMILE* -insert cue for me to stare in disbelief-
On another note, I absolutely love pathology. The pictures of damaged body parts are just so wonderful to behold! Come to daddy, baby!Labels: list, quotes, school |
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| Monday, 5 November 2007 |
| the wisdom of cristina yang |
“Being aware of your crap and actually overcoming your crap are two very different things.” - Cristina Yang
Ah, the wisdom of Cristina Yang.
Life would be so boring without her droll sense of humour.
And yes, being aware of all the crap you are expected to know for COFM, and actually knowing how to use the crap for COFM are really two very different things.
My first paper in M2. Oh boy, this is going to be so much fun. =/
I can hardly wait ...Labels: grey's anatomy, quotes, school |
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| Friday, 26 October 2007 |
| trick or treat |
I never thought I could love Meredith Grey even more. But after today's episode of 'Grey's Anatomy', I found myself falling even more deeply in love with her.
Bringing her mom's ashes to the hospital and trying to find a way to get rid of her? Perfect. And she volunteering to help the boy get his ear. OMG. How sweet is that?
I really love Meredith Grey! If I were in Seattle Grace right now, I'll fight Derek for her hand in marriage! She's so lovable and kooky and scary and damaged, but yet... she's in a strange strange twisted way, so so whole and fixed and complete.
Plus she has squeaky eyes. I love squeaky squeaky playful flirty eyes. And nice hair, and nice fashion sense! And her nervous stammering! I love her nervous stammering, because I think its really me. I would love to just have a whole day of nervous stammering with her. Sigh!
I could go on about the latest episode of Grey's, but I'm too distracted by the whole thought of Mer to really concentrate. This week's episode has lots of Mer! Lots and lots of Mer! I really love Meredith! I LOVE MER!
I think I should complete what I have left for Immunology, and find the time to watch the episode again. Sigh.
On another note: I really don't know what's happening, but I pray and hope that everything thing will turn out fine. I don't want to be haunted for the rest of my life.Labels: fanboy, grey's anatomy, quotes, randomness |
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| Thursday, 18 October 2007 |
| Don't Stand So Close to Me |
MEREDITH: "At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need." - Grey's Anatomy, Season 3, Episode 10, "Don't Stand So Close To Me"
Okay, just based on the whole chunk up there, you can probably infer that I've been watching 'Grey's' on Channel 5 again. What can I say? I'm just so addicted to 'Grey's'.
Anyway, that was Mer's voice-over closing speech-ending-thingy at the end of the 10th episode of Season 3. The episode's theme was on family, both your real biological family, and the family that you choose to adopt along the way.
I love the whole chunk up there. I know some of you would just say that its all just scripted melodrama, but you can't deny the truth behind those well scripted words. Because that's really what people do.
You find people, you pick them, and you choose who you want to be close to, and you stick by them, irregardless of whether you are holding on to them too tightly or whether you are influencing them in a negative way. Because they've become your family, your family away from your family, and you NEVER give up on family; no matter how irritating, how troublesome, how different they may be, you DO NOT quit your family. Simple as that.
I don't have anything else to say really. I just found the whole chunk up there very illuminating, and was overwhelmed by this sudden urge to post it up here.
'Grey's' really teaches you stuff - not just medical stuff, but human stuff as well. I keep finding parallels between events in the show and the life I'm living right now - so its hard not to lose myself completely to the non-reality of the series.Labels: grey's anatomy, quotes, soul |
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| Saturday, 29 September 2007 |
| A Change Is Gonna Come |
Grey's Anatomy is back! Woohoo! And I am McFreakin' Happy!
I can't describe my happiness now that Season 4 has started and I can have weekly episodes of Grey's to look forward to. In some ways, its kinda pathetic to have the highlight of your week being an episode of a television drama, but lets face it, I don't have that exciting a life in the first place! And staying home to watch Mer and Gang do some nasty nasty makes me happy, so really, I have absolutely nothing to complain about!
My favourite parts of the new episode:
1. The newly minted residents bullying their interns! The prep speeches were hilarious, followed by a scene where the four of them started bitching about the interns, and chasing them away when they tried to sit with them at their favourite corner - Cristina: 'Oh no no, this area is for RESIDENTS ONLY, NO STINKING BABY INTERNS!', Meredith: 'YEAH!', Alex: 'GET LOST YOU BABIES! 007s in training!', Izzie: 'GUYS!'
Oh and Cristina calling them by numbers! Even in surgery! I was cracking with laughter when she called Lexie,"Number 3" when she needed her help to hold the patient still!
2. Bailey snubbing both the Chief and Callie after she lost out on Chief Resident. The Nazi is back this season! She's back to her old feisty, I-HATE-YOU-ALL kind of mood. I love it when she told the Chief that she's not going to thank him for not choosing her as Chief Resident, at least 'NOT TODAY.' And when Callie came to complain about the residents not responding fast enough to her page, she drily noted to both the Chief and Callie that when SHE paged for her former interns, they always came running. And the end where Callie dared Bailey to tell her how terrible she is at her job - all Bailey said was 'Hope tomorrow is better.' SO BITCHY!
3. Mark's confession to Derek, "I didn't come to Seattle to be chief or to get Addison, I came to Seattle to get YOU back!". WHICH SOUNDED SO WRONG. Haha. And Derek expression of 'Huhhhhhhhhh? Did you seriously just say that?' after the whole outburst, and Mark's awkward look and 'I wish I could take that back, but I've said it, so there.' And their light hearted banter after that. I like the fact that these two former best friends and brothers are on their way to burying the hatchet and becoming friends again - cause they must have had a great friendship and excellent teamwork in the past. It'll be very interesting to see a McDreamy and McSteamy double tag team in surgery (and maybe in irritating people).
4. The new residents having their usual gossip sessions! I love it when they just sit around and do nothing but gossip and bitch about things.
Whether it be interns (Cristina: 'I hate them already!', Meredith: 'And they hate you.')
Or Callie (Alex: 'Callie's a bitch!', Izzie:'WORD!')
Or Bailey (Cristina: 'But Callie's OVER Bailey!', Meredith: 'Spiritually, Bailey's over EVERYONE!')
Or Lexie (Alex: *directed at Meredith* 'That girl with black hair... Lexie? She's hot!', Meredith: *stares* 'Get away before I kill you!', Cristina: *snorts with laughter).
Their gossip sessions are what makes me happy! GOSSIP GOSSIP GOSSIP!
5. Alex confides to Cristina that he misses Rebecca, and Cristina admitting she misses Burke. These two don't usually confide things to each other (Mer appears to be the one they tell dark and twisty things to) but they did it in this episode, which is good because it sorta reflects how much their friendship has matured - from hating each other's guts to a mutual respect for each other's cut throat attitudes.
6. Izzie saves a deer. Which IS SO IZZIE. I love her expression when it leaps to its feet after shocking it - "Oh my god! I did it! Its alive! Its alright! ITS ALIVE!" oh and how she handles her interns who think she is a dud, where in the end she sorta slaps them in the face with a nice little hope filled Izzie styled speech. I think her interns ARE rude - they come to their first day of internship expecting to scrub in on surgeries? And pouting and whining and moaning when they don't? LIKE SERIOUSLY?!? The 5 of them under Bailey had to do rectal exams and labs on their first day, so seriously, I think they were lucky that Izzie's so cheerful and floppy compared to Bailey. What a bunch of duds.
Things I do not like include Lexie being overly eager, confident and friendly, like she's trying so HARD to be liked by her new bosses and fellow interns, and most importantly, HER SISTER. Stop being so perky because it makes me want to shove an endoscope up your rear end.
And also George being a pain in the ass - yes you failed your intern test, yes you had to repeat your internship year, yes you have to do it while seeing your fellow batchmates become residents, yes you are doing things you have done all over again, yes that you must be in hell right now BUT STOP WHINING. SUCK IT UP AND BE A MAN! Hold your head high and stop acting like a indecisive baby! And stop snapping at everyone! Stop feeling that everyone's betrayed you and stop blaming them for your failure! I'm sorry George fans out there, but he has become so irritating, a far cry from his season 1 and 2 self that I seriously can't stand him. GROW UP BAMBI and stop being so nice and so lovable to everyone, only to become so TORTURED and TORMENTED later - DECIDE ON WHAT YOU WANT TO DO, WHO YOU WANT TO BE (and to be with!) and STICK TO IT!
Oh and George loves Izzie. Again, I'm sorry fans of the Gizzie coupling, but I am fundamentally opposed to this union of best friends (yuck!), especially since George is married and Izzie... she was supposed to have fallen head over heels for Denny. How could she fall in love with another man so quickly! I still have no idea why Shonda allowed this plot line to develop the way it did. Someone kill it already! Please!!!!
That said, Addison is sorely missed. I love her long flowing hair and spunkiness. She just spells bling-bling richness and class. Sigh. As for Burke... Not so much. I dislike him for ditching Yang at the altar. No one does that to my CRISTINA. Hope he falls down into a drain and has to go for brachio-plastic surgery - and get the tremors ALL OVER AGAIN! I'll like to see how you are going to get through that without Cristina around to support you! HUMPH.Labels: fanboy, grey's anatomy, list, quotes |
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| Friday, 10 August 2007 |
| alas, earwax! |
"It is my earnest hope that pondering upon the past may give guidance in days to come, enable a new generation to repair some of the errors of former years, and thus govern, in accordance with the needs and glory of man, the awful unfolding scene of the future." - Sir Winston Spencer Churchill
And that my friends, is an extract from the preface of the book 'The Gathering Storm' which is the first volume of a series of six books chronicling the Second World War, which incidentally, is written by the famous man himself.
I find it a fitting start to this entry, a quote by my most idolised Historical figure, a great man, a great source of inspiration for this lamented soul.
Alas, with 16 demerit points and 1 immediate failure, I have not succeeded in attaining my driver's license!
But today's failure would be tomorrow's success, and heed Churchill's words I shall, and I shall endeavor to learn from my unfortunate mistakes, so that when the time comes for me to meet the testers again, I shall do so with vengeance!
And it shall be I! Not them! Who draws first blood in our next battle! And they shall learn to fear me! To cry out in pain and despair! So cry my lamented souls!
CRY! CRY "GOD FOR HARRY! ENGLAND! AND ST. GEORGE!"
I shall not bother to recount my misadventure on the driving circuit, because it brings me great pain, and annoyance to relive it. But I am sure many of you have heard tidings of it by now, so pray, do not pity the dead! Pity the living instead!
And let us forget the unfortunate event, for it does us no good to dwell on thoughts of the dead and memories of the long forsaken past! Let us instead, unite our thoughts and soul, to forge better days ahead.
I am currently in the midst of reading 'The Second World War' by Sir Winston Churchill, which is a behemoth of a book, but incidentally, something I have always wanted to read.
I must also take the opportunity here to thank my dear friend Alex for his sudden new found generosity, for it is by virtue of his generous spirit (and sudden burgeoning wealth!) that I am able to receive this amazing book as a belated birthday gift.
(AND NOW, to revert out of my Dumbledore-ish/insane wizard mode back into normal mode!)
Sir Winston Churchill, is my hero.
There's no doubt about it. He has been, and will always be, the one Historical figure that I so constantly look up to.
He is the embodiment of sheer grit and determination, of rousing oratory and literary skill, of utmost chivalry and courage, of boldness, daring and audacity. He was a Giant among statesmen, a legend of our time.
He is the man that I've always dreamed and hoped to be, the man that represents so much, a kind of ideal, of what it is to be a Brit (what can I say? I've been an Anglophile all my bloody life!).
There's something Gryffindor-ish about him, and I think, inwardly, I've always lamented the fact that I don't have that much boldness and courage in me.
Sometimes I feel there's too much Ravenclaw rationality in my head; life would be so much easier if I didn't have to always think and consider this and that before doing something, compared to just identifying the problem and taking the plunge, head on.
'The Second World War' is over a thousand pages long. I'm only at page 10, but so far, it has proven to be such a fascinating read. Churchill's narrative skills and mastery of the English language is awe-inspiring.
Its amazing how something like recounting History, which in the hands of a lesser writer, could have turned long and dull, have ended up becoming so rich, dramatic and exhilarating. His words are thought-provoking and image-invoking. Its such a pleasure to read it.
I feel like I'm this close to the man. And feeling the weight of his wisdom and words bearing down on me.Labels: driving, literature, quotes, randomness |
| posted by voldemort33 @ 23:13 |
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| Tuesday, 24 April 2007 |
| "WHERE are we going?" |
WHERE are we going? - Edward Monkton
'Where are we going?'
'I don't know. I thought you knew.'
'No, I don't know. Maybe he knows.'
'No. He definitely doesn't know.'
PAUSE
'Maybe no-one knows.'
PAUSE
'Oh well. I hope it's nice when we get there.'
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I needed that to remind me why I'm still here. Hope it brings some amount of comfort to anyone out there, who is currently feeling some level of self-doubt and fear too. We'll be fine.
Visit edwardmonkton.com if you're looking for more bits of inspiration.Labels: quotes, soul |
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