All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go I'm standin' here outside your door I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn Already I'm so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me Tell me that you'll wait for me Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane I don't know when I'll be back again Oh, babe, I hate to go - "Leaving On a Jet Plane", Chantal Kreviazuk
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So cliche. I know, but like Callie, I embrace the trashiness. =P So the time has come for me to countdown to my trip. To my 3 weeks in Europe. My bags are already packed (although I have a nasty feeling that I may have left a thing or two somewhere, somehow) and hopefully, within the weight limit (though judging by their weight, I highly doubt so). I'm waiting for night to fall, for the clock to strike 9. Then I'm off. I'm off for what would be an adventure of a lifetime.
Now the time has come for me to leave you. For 3 weeks. I highly doubt I will be able to update much for the next 3 weeks. Maybe til I reach London. But yeah, I'll try to update, but don't count on reading anything substantial though.
I have no idea how to describe my feelings right now. Its sorta of a mix of restrained eagerness, muted anxiety and a nagging fear of the uncertainty that's lying ahead. Its gonna be an adventure, but adventures can be both good, and bad. It could be extremely relaxed and fun, or it could be extremely tough and tiring. But at least you have the guts to live through it. And really, I think its time for me to go on an adventure again.
Of course, I will miss the days I've been enjoying so far. Waking up at 1300 everyday, doing nothing but gaming, watching tv, and going on an occasional outing or movie or so. I will miss my bed, my room, my laptop! I will definitely miss blogging. And my music, seeing as to how I've yet to purchase a new ipod to bring my jukebox along. I will miss knowing how to go to places, knowing which places to go to. I will miss the certainty of it all. But I guess, these feelings are normal for anyone who is gonna leave behind your home for a long trip away from all the comforts you have.
I will try to make it back in one complete, sane piece. =P Til next time. Peace out.
*Just a little addition before I leave. "Our lives are made In these small hours These little wonders, These twists & turns of fate Time falls away, But these small hours, These small hours still remain" - "Little Wonders", Rob Thomas
Nice song called "Little Wonders" by Rob Thomas. I miss Rob Thomas in his Matchbox Twenty days. I love that band and their songs, stuff like 'Unwell', 'Bright Lights', 'If You're Gone' and "Disease". I hope they get back soon... But anyway, this song reminds me of the good old Matchbox Twenty rock ballads. Nice.
04s71 went to the zoo today. Or rather 6 members of 04s71 went to the zoo today. It was kinda sad that an outing with an expected turn out of 11 ended up just being an outing of 6. But its so typical of 71. What can we say, we sorta expected it. Haha. So in the end it was just the 6 of us: Gilyn, Shinwei, Khengwee, Yisheng, Anthony and me.
I love the zoo. Ever since I was a child, the zoo was the one and only place that I loved to visit. It definitely has to do with the fact that I love animals, and in fact, I still do. I'd always said that if I didn't get accepted into Medical School, I most likely would have gone overseas to read veterinary science, and come back to be a vet or something. And working in the zoo, or volunteering there for the matter, has always been somewhat of a dream of mine. And unfortunately, its been a dream I have yet to have fulfilled. So maybe, one day, when everything is right, I will actually get to work or volunteer there. We'll see.
I just have to mention about this particular sheep. He has a serious case of an indirect hernia. I am serious. I was so so traumatized and worried for this sheep that I became quite distraught and obsessed with trying to determine what was wrong with him. You can ask the rest of them. Plus he was a sheep, one of my kind, and it pains me to see one of my kind in such trouble. Really felt the sheep's pain. I mean, it had horribly horribly stretched testicles, so stretched that it was touching the floor. It was so painful to even watch him walk around the enclosure. I hope the vets treat him or something, and put him out of his misery. Poor dude.
Spot the Kangaroo!
Shinwei asked me to pull the nose of the statue of the Probiscus Monkey and take a photo with it. So here it is. We did a lot of stupid things really. The girls were debating which animals they liked based on their faces - whether they had evil faces or kind faces - which I think is a very strange way to explain why you like a certain animal. And we kept pretending we were intellects who knew all about the animals, spurting out random facts about the animals, when the truth is that we were just merely reciting the information on the boards at the enclosures. Once, some of us even started jumping to try to get some goat like creature to jump with us. Oh and when Gilyn started singing 'When you're happy and you know it, wag your tail!' Shinwei and I actually went 'Wag wag!' And the four of them were quite amazed that 2 medical students could be so childish as to sing along. I think we were both quite amazed too. Haha!
Oh the Baboons are amazing. The Singapore Zoo's Baboon exhibit is a very very fantastic example of how landscaping plays an important part in making the enclosure so much more realistic. It was amazing to watch the Baboons running around, living lives so startling similar to our own. Its like watching a soap opera. Always a hoot.
This king cobra was apparently attracted to me. It slithered all the way across the enclosure, right to the corner where I stood. And when I moved away, it slithered away. The rest say its because it wants to bite me. I say its because it knows that I'm Lord Voldemort and thus am able to communicate with snakes. So it slithered across the room to pay homage to its great master. Hehe.
Butterfly from the Fragile Forest trying to suck out the juices of Yisheng's hand.
Ben N Jerry's! We treated ourselves to Ben N Jerry's after a day of walking.
I had fun in the zoo today. But then I always have fun in the zoo. Haha. Its an annual sorta thing, go there almost once every year. I think I will never get sick of it, seeing the animals, listening to them, makes me happy. I dunno why. Maybe its telling that I feel so much happier around animals compared to being around humans.
I have so many other photos of other beautiful animals to post. I'm just gonna leave them for my own viewing pleasure.
Its that time of the week people.... where I post Grey's Anatomy spoilers on my blog. But this time, I'm really torn between listing down the spoilers and not listing down the spoilers... cause I really don't want to spoil it for you all. But I have so many things to say and I really need to blog about it. Cause this time, its the big one. Its the finale. The last episode of the third season. *Sob!* So I'm saying to all of you out there who watch Grey's and don't want to be spoilt, don't proceed any further than this.
Grey's Anatomy, Season 3 Episode 25 - Didn't We Almost Have It All. Didn't we almost have it all, indeed.
I think we tend to get so caught up in the moments of our lives and then we realize that everything that we have or may have, may not be exactly what we want or wish for. And then we give it up. Or we lose it. And then we realize that seriously, we shouldn't have given it up or let ourselves lose it. So in the end, we ask ourselves the rhetorical question, "Didn't we almost have it all?"
After one hell of a season, we have finally come to the end of the 3rd season of Grey's Anatomy. Its been a rough rough ride. We have characters dealing with issues that are significantly darker than those faced in season 2, we have relatives dying, people getting married, people almost drowning, people committing adultery and now, we have come full circle. The shocks have come, the sad sad conclusions have come. To quote Meredith, "Its all over. So over." So so over indeed.
If you haven't noticed, I'm trying to postpone the writing of the spoilers, entirely for your sake. See. I have given those of you out there who are still wavering enough time for you to turn back (if you want to that is). Although I must admit, all the tantalizing bits and pieces that I have left along the way would probably do nothing in helping to reduce the level of enticement faced by you guys. But if you are still here, then be warned because after this paragraph, its gonna be all spoilers, spoilers and more spoilers along the way! So turn back now!
Seriously. SERIOUSLY. Seriously.
... ... (You were warned!)
Its the finale. And questions have been answered. Who is the Chief's candidate for Chief? Not Addison - no surprises there, cause she is, after all, going to LA. Not Burke, cause seriously, did you expect Richard to give it to him after he sorta betrayed his trust with the shaky hand? Not Sloan - which is sorta a bit of a non surprise, yet also a surprise to me. I always thought Sloan would have made an interesting Chief, and that the Chief had every reason to choose him, because, Richard wouldn't mind ruining Sloan's life. Haha. Also, it'll be an interesting place for Sloan's character to be, to advance as a character in season 4. So yes. Its Derrek, only the twist is that Derrick doesn't want it. He throws it back at Richard, telling him that Richard is STILL the best man for the job. Which leaves us wondering if Richard is gonna take this offer seriously, and whether he chooses to stay on, especially since its sorta hinted that he and Adele are gonna stay together now. So let the speculation begin.
Who is Chief Resident? Surprisingly, it isn't Bailey. Its Callie. Understandably, Bailey's sad. Disappointed, betrayed, all those kind of stuff. The poor girl thought she had the place firmly in her hands, especially after the chief sorta anointed her as the chosen one. But alas, it isn't her. She feels like she's lost it, when just a season ago, she seemed to have it all. And its a lesson for Bailey, and if we have seen any change in Bailey, its the way she's become less of the Nazi that she is. We see she's vulnerable, she has doubts, she has feelings. And it'll be interesting to see how she reacts to not being the top dog any more in the next season, especially when her interns are now gonna be residents.
Speaking of her interns... not all make it through the test. George fails. When faced with the option of retaking his internship year, or giving up his place at Seattle Grace, he seemingly choses the latter, in what appears to be a seemingly convenient move to end the whole Callie-George-Izzie triangle. But then he meets the new batch of interns, which happens to include the very infamous girl from the bar. And surprise surprise - she's Lexie Grey. Mer's very own half sister who's coming to SGH, and form the looks for it, has the same taste in men as her elder sister. (sorta expected that really. Hehe.) Something tells me that George is gonna repeat his internship year, and that way, we are gonna see more of little Lexie... who is quite hot by the way.
Alex and Ava. She leaves, but not before he gives Alex a choice. To give her a reason to stay in Seattle, to leave her bad marriage. In an unbelievably heartbreaking scene, she beseeches, even begs Alex to tell her the words she wants to her, to tell her to say it, to tell her to stay, to give her a reason to stay. But he doesn't say it. He can't commit. He tells her to stick to her decent, but boring husband. He lets her go. And how ironic it is that it is Addison who finally makes him come to his senses, that he loves Ava, and shouldn't give up the opportunity to be with her. So he runs back to find her. But its too late. She's gone. (Frankly, I was quite happy they didn't end up together because I really didn't want another Denny situation.)
Izzie and Callie. Two women fighting for the same man, oblivious to the fact that the same man they love, is right now, in his own state of crisis. Izzie declares her love for George, in what is a typical Izzie move. Which is in direct contradiction to what she did in her previous episode where she denies having feelings for him. She also asks George if he loves her, demands to know that George loves her - thankfully, we aren't treated with the answer. Meanwhile, Callie wants to have a baby, and George compiles to her request. And in what could be seen as Callie issuing a challenge to Izzie, she tells Izzie that she's been appointed as Chief Resident and that George and her are gonna try to have a baby. So she's issuing a challenge to Izzie, telling Izzie that she's both her boss at work, and that she and George are taking their relationship to the next level. So the love triangle, made even more complicated with George failing his exams, is still unsettled... and we can be sure we are gonna see more of it in the next season.
Meredith and Derrek. Cristina and Burke. Two couples in love. But somehow we get the feeling, these two couples are really actually just one problematic couple, just extensions of each other really. Meredith needs to see Cristina get married, because she needs to believe in Cristina being able to find her happy ending.(which she feels, is a direct reflection of her own ability to find happiness.) She needs to have something to believe in. She needs this wedding as much as Cristina herself needs it. Cristina is, meanwhile, having cold feet, but she handles herself well, and surprises everyone when she doesn't bail. (not when everybody expects her to.) She doesn't run away, and although she does freak out at one point because her vows have been scrubbed off, Meredith manages to convince her that she can do this. And she can do this! She's actually determined to do it. And just when she is about to start walking down the aisle, Burke does the unimaginable. He walks in and cancels the wedding. Telling her that she's free, that he's sorry for making her the person that she has becoming, so different from the Cristina he and everyone knows. All this despite having written such an amazing set of vows for Cristina, he suddenly realises that the woman he is marrying, is no longer the woman that he loves, that he has changed her, with all his pushing, into someone else. The utter sadness of it all. AND HE ACTUALLY LEAVES HER.
And Cristina is devastated. So utterly devastated. In one of Sandra Oh's most amazing scenes ever, she screams, 'He left. I'm Free. DAMN IT!' And the last scene where Meredith rushes to be with her best friend in her most desperate time of need, helping her remove the choker given to her by Mrs Burke, and cut off the wedding gown, and then just hugging her. Oh my god. So so sad, so so tragic. And it has a kind symmetry to that of the ending of the first episode of the season, where Meredith helps Izzie out of her prom dress. Sigh. Poor Cristina. I hate to see her so distraught. Makes me so sad.
And you can see that Meredith is severely affected by this, because she sees this as a parallel of what is going on in her own relationship with Derrick. She now feels that there is no possible happy ending for both Cristina and her, and she sorta effectively hints that she is ending her own relationship with Derrek as well, in which she sees there is absolutely no future with him, because she holds the view that the relationship will only end like Burktina's did - in disaster. And this had to happen immediately after the conversation she has with Derrek, where he asks if she was really committed to the relationship like he was, and if she saw no future in being with him, to cut him loose. So will it be the end of Mer and Der? I dunno. But the sudden appearance of Lexie Grey in SGH isn't going to make things any easier for them.
And so we are left with alot of questions and new possibilities for our favourite doctors in Seattle. I love them, and I feel so sad after the finale. Especially the last few scenes of Cristina just breaking down. SO so sad. 2 months before any new episodes of Grey's come to life, and for now, we can only speculate about the things to come. Lets hope the next season wouldn't be so tragic and sad. Let the interns, who are now residents, be the ones bullying people! Woohoo! =p
To cap it all off. A nice song from Grey's itself. "Breakable by Ingrid Michaelson"
So far, its been a rather exhaustive week. With PDCP lessons in the Business Faculty, 2 movies, 2 outings and a whole lot of worrying about the upcoming trip. Its no wonder I feel like sleeping at 9 pm today.
PDCP in Biz is quite a... I dunno, waste of time? But at the same time, the stuff they are teaching us can be very interesting if its well, taught in a more interesting way. But oh well, the way they are teaching it is so methodical, its just a pain to sit through the lectures and tutorials. And having to wake up early everyday again. ARGH. Damn it. I just got my sleeping pattern fixed at my holiday levels and they had to disrupt it again. Which absolutely sucks. Then again, some of the stuff they are talking about in PDCP is quite interesting. Especially the personality tests and types because, well, I am a sucker for personality tests. And the Goffman theory is actually quite interesting. But still, I rather they not try to force feed us to accept such things and instead let me continue my bumming days. Yeah.
Then again, going back to school means actually doing something other than... well, not doing anything. And of course being able to meet friends in med school again, and seeing and hearing them do hilarious stuff.
On Monday, had lunch with the OG at Gim Mo, went out with them after PDCP for dinner and went to watch '200 Pound Beauty' @ Cineleisure. Its quite a funny movie, not as bad as I expected it to be. Its all about you know, finding yourself, your inner beauty and stuff, and having confidence in yourself despite what you may look like. Which actually co-relates to what we were actually studying in PDCP that day! WOW. The songs was quite nice, the story a tad bit erm, unbelievable. And it managed to juggle between being funny and being emotional quite well. It was also hilarious that the OG girls who were sitting in front of me, were making SO much funny noises throughout the show. Some of them even cried! I don't understand how they can cry in a movie like "200 Pound Beauty"... I mean, yes its well, sweet and all, but not that touching, you know what I mean? Plus its supposed to be funny. Very very funny. Maybe the tears were out of laughter. I dunno.
On tuesday, had an almost full day outing with my Anat group. Lunch at Siam Kitchen in Suntec was very amusing, thanks to another wonderful Cindy-moment where she exclaimed that her serving was the smallest to the rather distraught waiter. Plus everyone just kept discussing about the johari window we did in lessons and we had a fun time labeling each other as 'facades' and 'blindspots' and 'unknowns'. Throughout the course of the day we did lots of crazy stuff, like stalking Peishan with a camera, listening to each other say the weirdest things, witnessing the girls backstabbing each other, witness Huipei sitting on a kiddie ride and oh yeah, we also watched a movie. We watched the movie '28 Weeks Later'. Oh boy. I think this was a movie that we shouldn't have watched, but I guess we didn't have a choice since there were only 3 movies screening at Marina GV then (Spiderman 3, 28 weeks and some malay horror flick) and '28 weeks' was the only choice really. It was just... a pointless movie. Just mad zombies eating people and stuff; watching stupid people act stupidly and causing a second outbreak of some virus that turns people mad with rage; watching stupidly heroic people getting killed to save an apparent cure, only to spread the virus from Britain to mainland Europe. Argh. It was 7 dollars wasted. I know we are supposed to draw parallels with Iraq and all, but lets just leave that for the critics. The only saving grace was that it was quite a well filmed and directed movie, from a horror thriller point of view. ANYWAY, I am severely affected by the stupid movie because everywhere I go, I keep thinking about zombies and stuff, keep imagining that the next person I meet will spot bloodshot eyes and start vomiting blood and then charge at me in an attempt to bite my neck. So much so that I pitched the idea of 'Blood Lusting zombies forming a rock and roll band' for the Med D&D poster to Samantha. Which reminds me, I have to get something out by Friday. ARGH. And I don't think its wise to watch a show about a killer virus set in London, especially when you are just about to leave for Europe and said city for a 3 week tour in another few days time.
Oh and I bought two Lego Star Wars key chains on Tuesday! My Darth Vader and Imperial Royal Guard Lego key chains are now accompanying me wherever I go. Gerard and I are very fascinated by the Lego Star Wars sets that cost like a bomb, and when we saw a huge collection of Lego Star Wars key chains, I think we sorta lost it. We both bought a Darth Vader key chain because hello, Darth Vader is like one of the greatest kick ass villains ever and he is like synonymous with the whole Star Wars series! On top of that, I bought an Imperial Royal Guard because, well, it was a childhood ambition of mine to be one of those guys protecting the Emperor. (obviously that ambition has changed after I inadvertently discovered that the Star Wars universe was actually not real.) Gerard bought an R2D2 key chain as well. Woo hoo! Star Wars Lego is so cool! I really hope Peishan does buy the 17'000 dollar Lego set for Gerard, then we can all go to his house and play Lego! So fun! Weeeee~!
Today's PDCP was literally a battle of the sexes kind of slugfest. OMFG. It was hell. I was feeling so drained after the morning tutorial that I decided to skip the afternoon lectures and tutorials just to go home and sleep. I can't believe we are having an essay writing exam for PDCP. I mean, seriously, what's the point?
I'm starting to feel my pre-trip depression setting in. Argh. I hate packing and planning for holidays, and I hate it when people around me are packing and planning it as well. Its just a weird thing I have for holiday trips. Dunno why. But oh well, feeling so exhausted at the thought of going on holiday. Bleah.
Tomorrow's supposed to be our break from PDCP. Gonna go for Anat group lunch with Prof Raj, then try to get my packing started and start work on my maps and of course Med D&D poster before Samantha pesters me for it on Friday.
For Mothers' Day, we had the best Ra-men I had ever tasted on local shores. And there's good reason for it to be so, considering that we paid 15 dollars for each bowl of delicious, authentic, tantalizing Ra-men.
Marutama Ra-men, located on the 3rd floor of the Central. You'll have to queue for roughly twenty to thirty minutes to get a seat in the cosy little Ra-men shop, but the food is worthed the wait.
I haven't felt so satisfied with a bowl of noodles in such a long time.
I was on the way home from the 71 guys outing yesterday when the song 'Chasing Cars' by Snow Patrol just kept ringing in my head. I think it had to do with watching the penultimate episode of the third season of Grey's Anatomy the night before. After the amazing season 2 finale of Grey's (in which, they used this very same song in what was an ultimate Grey's moment) I will always associate this song with Grey's.
"If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"
"Testing 1-2-3" was a much anticipated return to the original format of Grey's. It was a much more satisfying episode compared to the previous 2 hour special. A typical episode of Grey's that's building up to the finale which airs next week. We have interns taking their exams (or for the case of one particular intern, refusing to take the exam), attendings being cordial and friendly with one another, Callie issuing a challenge to Bailey, the Chief encountering his soon to be ex-wife in the hospital and the mysterious girl in the bar who offered to buy Derek a drink. And it didn't have a proper ending... paving the way for a continuation in next week's highly anticipated finale. I'm sorta sad that Grey's is going to end again. I can't get used to the fact that there's no new episodes of Grey's every week for me to just immerse myself in. Add to the fact that Heroes is also ending soon, I've suddenly found myself devoid of new television episodes for at least another 2 months. Bleah.
"Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life"
So anyway, I was on the bus when the song just kept appearing in my head. I love the lyrics of the song - sure it can be really sappy sometimes, and like all hits that have been overplayed on the airwaves like 'You're Beautiful', 'Bad Day', 'Collide', it will eventually, get on your nerves. But 'Chasing Cars' has an added advantage of having a climax. I love the way the music crescendos gradually throughout the course of the song. And when it comes to the last 4 stanzas... it just rips through the listener. There's something therapeutic about listening to the song at maximum volume on your speakers on headphones, and letting the climax hit you. So its not just a sappy ballad, its a sappy, emo rock ballad. And rock ballads are especially bitter sweet, which is why I say, give me a plateful of rock ballads over sappy pop ballads anytime.
"All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see"
I think I've said this before, and I will say it again. I love the whole notion of lying down on the grass and just watching the clouds go by. Where two of us are just wasting time... interpreting the shapes of the clouds, wondering if there's anything bigger out there in the vast open sky. I want to bring the girl I love star gazing. Where we'll just watch the stars, twinkling and blinking at us, as if they were trying to tell us secret about the universe, that only they and us are entitled to know. Sometimes, the best thing to do is to waste time together. To just sit and chill. To just chase ideas and notions in our heads. Chasing cars that aren't going anywhere, round and round the blocks. And then you stop and realise, that you are back at the starting point, with the one you love, and that everything else doesn't matter anymore.
"I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all"
I was watching 'Live from Abbey Road' on Wednesday and they had Snow Patrol. One of the songs they played was, of course, 'Chasing Cars'. It'll be quite amazing to listen to them perform it "Live", or for that matter, to attempt to sing it "Live". But the thing about rock ballads is that they are actually very hard to perform to a 'Live' audience... you have to balance the pitch, the tone, the right accent, the right volume, and your mistakes are often magnified because you lack the actual loud background music you find on your recorded versions to moderate your mistakes.
"If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"
Somehow, I have a nagging feeling that Cristina and Burke won't make it to the altar, cause we will have a run away groom. Yes. I bet Cristina isn't the one to balk, but Burke is the one to balk instead. I know, that'll be an ending I'll be talking about for a long long time.
I met up with my class guys today! About time too. I think its been ages since we had a proper 'all guys outing'. It was a pity Alex couldn't make it due to his fetish for Saturday duties, but hey, a turn out of 6 out of 7 guys is still good. Oh well. The disadvantages of having so little guys in your class. Haha.
I arrived third today, around 15 minutes late. I'm sorry Kheng Wee and Yisheng! I didn't mean to be late, seriously. Blame it on the road conditions! There's always a jam at the junction near Tekka Mall. Irritating. But anyway, the rest of the guys were later than me, so the 3 of us made our way first to the restaurant to have our favourite Ah Yat dim sum. We chose to go to the Bugis branch, which we have never been to before because it didn't offer any discount. But we got so tired of walking into Turf City for the branch which offered the 50% discount so we had to exchange cheaper prices for the greater level of convenience.
By a sheer stroke of coincidence, we were allocated the table 71. Can you imagine our delight? Guys from class 71 being allocated the table 71. We should have bought lottery or something. We were feeling quite out of place in the restaurant because it was situated in a hotel, and I think most of their clientele is made up of rich tourists who were ordering huge abalone slices and stuff. And here we were, a bunch of university students and NSFs, complaining about the lack of discounts and high prices. It was quite amusing. Anyway, Hanjie, Anthony and Mao Jiang eventually arrived. We ordered lots of our favourite Dim Sum delights, like the delicious 龙须 and 猪肠粉. Despite the slightly higher prices, we just decided to let it all go and just eat. Just kept pigging out. It was really quite heavenly. Haha. In the end, I think the assistant captain of the restaurant got so impressed with us that she offered us a 15% discount, and told us to come back next time and look for her so that she'll offer us a discount again. So we were quite happy! Haha. In the end the bill amounted to around $20 each, which we felt was quite worthed it considering the amount of food we ordered. Money well spent.
We had a fun time catching up. I haven't met Mao for such a long time (I think the rest of the guys too.) He is the only guy among us 7 to sign on as a Navy Officer, so his life is remarkably different compared to the rest of us. He hasn't commissioned yet, he is commissioning on 10th of June, but since he is a LSA recipient, he is gonna start University this August, faster than the rest of the guys still in the military. Plus the fact that he was the only guys from our class to be enlisted in March, he was in a batch totally different from us. So his experiences in the military, is so different from us. The stories he kept telling us, about how his batch was filled with Poly graduates who are so much more... erm, promiscuous and flippant and rebellious than us JC graduates are so amusing. Just listening to how he has to deal with them, and how exasperated he gets is quite funny. But you just know that Mao has his ways of surviving without being tempted by their wild lifestyles, cause he is a man of principle and he knows how to deal with them, to politely reject their offer to go 'bang bang' with them without being rude. Anyway, Mao is just simply Mao. Still the same old gentle giant with the funny sense of humour. Haha. Really nice catching up with him.
After lunch, we decided to go walk around at Bugis to see what we could do. The theatre there was screening nothing but "Spider-man 3" which most of us had already caught, the arcade there was freaking crowded, which kinda put us off, the place was PACKED which again put us off, so we decided to head our way to town. Hanjie left to go to watch a competition, so it was left with the 5 of us. We wanted to watch a movie, but the slots weren't good, and considering the fact that it was Saturday, the rest of Singapore was probably booking tickets in the cinemas as well. We tried looking for good timings, from Cine to Lido to PS to Cathay, trying to find good seats for a good time slot for either "28 Weeks Later" or "Bridge to Terabithia". But most of the theatres were actually reserved for "Spider-man 3"! Man, we were quite pissed, because the sheer number of theatres that Spidey3 took up was just reducing the number of theatres for other movies. Couldn't understand why so many people were still watching Spidey3 - most of the slots for it at every single cinema is sold out. Madness. So in the end we couldn't find a movie to watch, ended up chilling at Starbucks in Cathay, where we caught up with the latest trends, hookups (among the girls), and our individual lives. We started planning an all guys trip to Australia at the end of the year. And a fishing trip out on Anthony's new fishing boat. Kinda hyped up by that! Woo hoo! Fishing on a boat! What a life man! Anthony is gonna get a boating license, so that he can take people to Singapore's off shore islands to fish and do stuff! How cool is that?
We chatted all the way til the sun had set, then we decided to head our way down to Suki Sushi for dinner. Since we were still really full from the Dim Sum lunch, we decided to not eat the buffet and ordered a la carte instead. The servings there were HUGE. I think all of us ended kinda bloated from the sheer amount of food we had to eat. Argh. I hope we don't suffer from indigestion. Dinner ended at around 9, and we decided to just head home. Guess we can't handle long days out anymore without needing some form of perk-up like coffee or a nice afternoon nap. Sigh. We really are getting old. Bleah.
Really happy that I managed to meet up and catch up with the rest of the guys. That's the kind of thing you get when you have a class with a gender disparity. There were only 7 of us against 19 girls. So despite being remarkably different individuals, we really didn't have a choice - it was simply a case of guys uniting against the overwhelming oppression from the girls. Haha. 71 guys rule! Muahahaha.
10/05/07 Gosh, I hope to complete this entry quickly.
Anyway, continuing where I left off... after SYF, I went for a quick lunch at Lau Pah Sat, where I ate Pig's Brain Soup. I've fallen in love with it ever since Yisheng introduced it to me on a particularly memorable night cycling trip. So had it again that day.
Results where released today. I was going to Holland Village to go to Settlers' with Shinwei, Yuen Mei and Yisheng, and since I had quite some time to spare, decided to go to school to check my results. I passed my first year in med school with a triplet of Bs. Quite happy caused I aimed to get that right from the start of med school. I hope everyone did well, and passed, and did according to your expectations! Think our batch is quite good, cause the list of people who had to take supplementaries was quite short... I think it had less than 10 people. So kudos to us all. Haha.
Met Yisheng at Burger King in Holland Village after that. Waited for Yuen Mei and Shinwei who apparently missed the bus-stop and had to take a cab back down to Holland V. Girls. Haha. After that, the 4 of us made our way down to Settlers' only to discover that it was FULLY BOOKED, and the 4 of us made the fatal mistake of not reserving a place there. The only available table was at 6, which we weren't up for. So in the end, we decided to just go to some place with food and drinks and most importantly, air condition to just chill. Went to this bread shop called Provence or something like that. Had a couple of nice cheese buns and a delicious cup of ice chocolate. It was during then that Zhiyong called me with the 'Live' telecast results of SYF. Also listened to alot of different stories about Yuen Mei and her new found love. I think she's happy, even though erm... they got together quite fast. Anyway, Yisheng and Shinwei both saw the boy, and apparently he looks like a nice, honest guy, so we are quite relieved for her and happy for her to have found a nice companion. So congratulations Yuen Mei! May you enjoy more blissful days to come! Haha.
We got so bored that Shinwei suddenly suggested going to Haw Par Villa. And the rest of us were so enthusiastic, we immediately decided to make a trip down there. So the 4 of us got into a cab, and ended up in Haw Par Villa. Can you imagine? What was intended to be a trip to Settlers' ended up as a visit to Haw Par Villa. We are really quite a crazy bunch of people. But anyway, we had quite a tough time there. It was so hot, and I think all 4 of us were too overly dressed for Haw Par Villa, cause we intended our day to be one spent in the comforts of an air conditioned place. We even paid a token 1 dollar fee to enter the '10 Courts of Hell' exhibit. I have no idea why tourists are willing to even go there. I mean, its just filled with gruesome (and admittedly, rather unrealistic) plaster statues of people being tortured and more importantly, the place is horribly stuffy and has absolutely no ventilation at all. We were so put off by the heat that by the time we got out of the exhibit, most of our energy and mood had been sapped away. So we just spent the remaining of our time there, walking around, taking photos. In the end, we just couldn't stand the heat, so we decided to bail. We probably explored less than a quarter of the place. Haha. But hey, entrance to the park itself was free, so we didn't lose much.
Nevertheless, it was quite an interesting trip. Goes to show that interesting outings can happen just out of the spontaneity of the moment.
I'm too lazy to do a good ending. I guess my entry about the 3 days (08 to 10 of May) ends here. Woo hoo!
10/05/07 I woke up at the unearthly hour of 0600 again. This time, it was so that I could go down to the Singapore Conference Hall to get tickets for the Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging for Chinese Orchestras from Junior Colleges. I've been pretty hyped up for this year's SYF, even more so compared to the years where I was actually competing in. Been looking forward to it since the end of Pros really, and the couple of times where I've went back to listen to the Juniors' practice sessions. I must say I was quite worried because in the last practice session that I attended, they weren't spectacular. But Alex told me that they improved tremendously over the past few days, and that they were definitely of 'Gold with Honours' standard now. So I was quite excited about their performance.
I reached the SCH at around 8, after hitching a ride with my Dad. It was a rather frosty journey because he was still mad at me. But anyway, he dropped me off at Aljunied MRT near his office, and I took the train down to Tanjong Pagar. Received a couple of rather distraught messages from Alice saying that there was no one there. Turns out that they were only distributing tickets at 0830 in the morning, so naturally most people were going to turn up at around that time. Ended up waiting for people to arrived. Quite a number of supporters from my batch and senior batches turned up. And then we went in at around 0845 or so, to watch the whole tedious proceedings.
The most difficult thing about sitting through an SYF central judging is the fact that you have so many schools, playing the same set piece over and over again. I mean, its okay if the set piece is nice, or if the schools are able to perform the set piece well... But very often, you get a set piece that isn't erm... fit for human appreciation, or schools that aren't of a sufficient standard to perform a rather challenging set piece. This year's set piece was rather nice, and a piece I was quite familiar with considering the fact that I'd been back for so many practice sessions. But sad to say, it was a very challenging piece to perform, and *cough* most schools were lacking in skill to perform it. So after awhile, I found myself hopelessly exasperated over the lack of standard and couldn't help but day dream. Geraldine, who sat beside me, was trying to overwrite her instincts to micturate, despite having a full bladder that probably reached the level of her umbilicus and all. But due to the fact that they juniors had a balloted slot in the late morning, we didn't really have much of a choice. We had to sit through a mind numbling amount of schools' performances before they performed.
I was very nervous for them. I was so distracted by my heart beat (that sounded strangely magnified during the set piece) that I didn't really pay attention to their performance. But listening to the recordings now, I must say they executed it well. A little mistakes here and there but that's entirely normal in SYF performances. I think their set piece was the best among the schools I heard that day, and I say this not out of biasness but based on what I know about Chinese Orchestra music. But their set piece wasn't what impressed me. It was their choice piece - by then, I had managed to calm myself down and was able to truly appreciate it. It was fantastic. I think it was so much better than my own batch's performance, and that it was on par to the performance my seniors executed to clinch the champion spot in 2003. It was very well executed, very well expressed. They did everything perfectly. It was very inspiring to see them excel on stage. I felt an upsurge of emotion during their song, something which hasn't happened to me at a concert for a very long time. And they did what my seniors managed to do 4 years ago - to not just perform a piece, but to make inspiring music.
There was such a marked difference in the kind of music the Juniors produced compared to the rest of the schools, so much so that there was a subtle difference in the way the audience reacted. It was quite amusing, because we were sitting in front of a row of TJC seniors. They kept expressing awe about our juniors' performance, and we couldn't help but over hear some of their conversation - "This is what is called 'Gold with First Class Honours'!", "Their pieces were so well executed! They sound so different form the rest of the schools! They are literally of a different level compared to all of the rest!", "This is why HCCO is the front runner of JC COs." Geraldine's friend who was in NJ and also present at the judging messaged her, telling her that 'HCCO come here and spoil market one! If you guys don't get GWH, the judges ought to go and die!' So it was quite amazing to see other school's seniors singing our juniors' praises. We were all so proud of them.
In the end, the juniors did it. They got the Gold with Honours. Kinda expected really. Haha. But I felt that even if some freak accident happened and they didn't get the Honours, I would still feel proud of them, because their performance was just so inspiring. The passion for Chinese Orchestral music that has been lying dormant in my heart has been reawakened by their performance, which is a feat that no one has been able to do over the pass 3 years. Kudos to them. Congratulations kiddos!
ARGH. Shit. Its 1128 and I'm supposed to meet the class guys for Dim Sum buffet at 1230. And I haven't showered yet. And I still have lots to blog about... cause my day hasn't ended. I'll just continue later.
Okay, so here's the second part of my entries for the previous 3 days.
09/05/07 I went driving during the lunch hour, and compared to the PREVIOUS session, it was a smooth sailing one. I'm quite thankful I didn't meet that previous instructor again. I swear I would have committed suicide in front of him if I had to go through another lesson with him.
After driving, I went to the Esplanade for my annual 'Arty-Farty Retreat'. I spent the whole afternoon in the Esplanade Library, reading books on film, theatre, music, and art. Even drew a few sketches on my sketchpad, tried to refine some drawing techniques and all. So it was quite a good afternoon, until I got a bit irritated with a couple of girls sitting beside me, who were talking so loudly, discussing some composition they had to write. So I decided to just go and have a cup of hot chocolate at the chocolate place downstairs.
After that went to explore Little India with Alice, Jinx and Zhiyong. The buggers didn't tell me that they changed the meeting place! So I ended up waiting at Farrer Park MRT for like half an hour. And they didn't even seem remorseful about it! Grrrrr. (I supposed they didn't even know that I was coming in the first place.) Thank god for my sketchpad. I actually drew an interesting conceptual design for a character in my comic series while waiting for them.
Walked around Little India. Its quite an out of this world place to be in. It feels so different from the rest of Singapore, where it retains its own separate identity and life: everything there seems to be occurring at pace very different from that in normal Singapore. You have vehicles and drivers who won't hesitate to knock you down, you have your interesting spice shops, garment shops, goldsmiths. It just feels different. Interesting place.
The three of them had dinner at some contemporary place which sells all kinds of vegetarian Indian cuisine. I don't exactly know what they ate, but I didn't eat anything cause well, I don't eat Indian food (because I can't take chili) and I had already eaten an Italian BMT from Subway prior to that. (this is called... FORESIGHT) Anyway, they ordered too much and I had quite alot of fun gloating and watching them struggle through their meal, which was clearly intended to feed at least six people. Took lots of photos (and a 5 min video) of them in various states of discomfort, struggling to finish their food. Oh I did order a drink called 'Lassi'. The waiter told me it was 'Butter Milk' so I thought I would give it a try. My first impression of the drink was that it was liquid cheese - really really strong liquid cheese. According to the rest, however, it was Yogurt. Which I didn't know, because... well, prior to that, I've never tasted Yogurt before. But anyway, I couldn't stand it, so I gave it to the three of them. It was promptly thrown away with the rest of the left overs.
On an entirely different note: Quarreled with my dad over the issue of the house. He shouted at me, said that I was rude (and admittedly, I was a tad bit rude to him) and I just ignored him and continued watching my TV show. Think the house is gonna tear my family apart. But that would be such perfect soap-opera material, don't think I'm that fortunate (or unfortunate) to live such a life. Haha. We'll see how it goes.
Oh thank god I'm finally able to post today. I have so much to talk about over the last 3 days!
08/05/07 I woke up at an unearthly 0530 today. Can you imagine? That's 30 minutes before the time I had set on my alarm clock. I was woken up by two messages from Yisheng, one telling me that he'll lend me a set of HC uniforms, and the other, asking if I had anymore HC badges. I briefly replied the messages, but couldn't get back to sleep, so I decided to just go shower and prepare for my day.
As you would have probably guessed, I went back to HCJC on monday. Accompanying me on my mad trip back was Yisheng, Eesuan and Shinwei. Four crazy, and all-too-free lunatics who wanted to go back to their old school, dressed in school uniforms and all. It was hilarious really. We all looked pretty much the same as our JC selves, but I guess anyone will turn out that way if you don the HC uniform. Hurhur. Kept trying to avoid being caught by some of my juniors in the HC uniform. Can you imagine? Getting caught in the HC uniform by juniors that you know, who are like 2 years younger than you? My reputation would be gone in like an instance. (unfortunately, a couple of them did see me in my HC uniform, and I had to meet them two days later at SYF. Sigh.)
The reason why we decided to meet so early (at around 0710) was because we wanted to crash the morning assembly. We were already running a bit late because I had to change into the uniform, and the girls were slightly late, so we had to rush to get into line before the bell rang. We were literally the last few 'students' in the right wing, and we just charged into the central plaza, not knowing where we were supposed to stand because we obviously didn't have a class to stand with. Suan just led the way, and we ended up behind some random class. The funny thing was that we were so out-of-touch with the once familar routine of morning assemblies that we turned at the wrong commands and forgot that we had to do stuff like say the pledge and all. And when the teachers started going down the row to take attendance, we were quite freaked out that the teacher of the class we joined would ask for an explanation of our presence there. Yisheng even planned a story about us being foreign exchange students to explain our sudden existence. Haha. So we stood out like sore thumbs! Especially Shinwei with her red hair! HAHA. During the course of the morning announcements, swarms of teachers just kept descending on her asking her to explain why she had reddish hair. Some of them recognised her, being her council teachers and stuff, but it was still quite embarrassing trying to explain our existence there, and why we were in uniforms and all. One particularly anal teacher wanted Shinwei to change out of the uniform, because of her hair. Being young adults, we naturally didn't heed his words (and were quite lucky that we didn't encounter him again.)
Anyway, we wanted to crash some lectures, but found out from Yisheng's cousin who happens to be in 07s71 (our great grand junior class) that they didn't have much lectures today, except Economics. Haha. We didn't want to crash an Econs lecture, so we decided to just chill in the canteen first before we set out to find our tutors. And we ended up meeting our Maths tutor there! Chatted with him for awhile, then went to find the rest of our tutors in the staff room. Met Mrs Chong, our Economics Tutor, and had a rather hilarious conversation with her. She starting making a list of our class, but she kept spelling our names wrongly - 'Damian' as 'Daiman', 'Yuen Mei' as 'Yuen Mein'- the hilarious thing was the four of us sorta gave up correcting her - we felt that there was no point really. Haha. Then we met Mr Lee, our Chemistry tutor, and dragged him to the consultation area, where we had a lengthy conversation with him. It was very fun to catch up with him, because I was quite close to him and he is the youngest (and most childish) of our tutors, so the class sorta connected with him. And then our CT and GP tutor Mr Wong came after spotting Yisheng when he went to fill his water bottle! Haha! Then Mr Lee changed shift with him and Mr Wong then came to talk to us at the consultation area for a very very long time, til he had to take off for another lesson. Mr Wong's another tutor that I'm close with, and he just kept rambling on and on about people in class and stuff. Since he was sorta like our 'father' and all (Mr Lee kept telling Mr Wong that we were his "children"), it was really fun to hear him ramble on about our class again.
After that we invited Mr Lee, who was darn free for that day, to go to have lunch we us. We wanted to eat at our favourite eatery, Curry Wok, but they were actually closed on Tuesdays! ARGH! So we ended up eating at Prince in Coronation Plaza instead. Geraldine joined us for lunch as well, so we had a rather hilarious time there where we inadvertently helped Mr Lee order an adult set meal without knowing the price of it, while we helped ourselves to the ridiculously cheap student meals. Haha.
We were quite silly as we forgot to take photos with the teachers. And the ironic thing was that all 4 of us had cameras. I guess you just forget stuff when you are having fun. Haha.
We decided that we are gonna do this again sometime, to go play volleyball at the courts. Its our class tradition to play volleyball - though for my case, its always either to watch the rest play or go down onto the courts to provide comic relief. Can't wait though! Haha.
*I do have photos to post but blogger's taking abit too long to publish them, so I'll leave them for another time.
I was SO pissed with the driving instructor that I got today (Ong A.S) that I went into my extremely dark place again. I started driving recklessly and I swear if the road conditions were any worse I would be dead right now. Come to think of it, I was really really reckless and uncontrollable. All I know was that I kept telling myself to drive crazily so as to freak the man out and make him shut up. I think he sensed something was NOT right with me and got quite I dunno, apprehensive about nagging at me after a while. So in some sick way I got the better of him.
I just couldn't stand his nagging - it was like a tidal wave, it just kept coming and coming, and each time it hit the banks, it was of a higher level that the previous time. If I could I would have gone berserk and strangled him. And he had such a patronising voice - like that of Dr. Martin Lee. Come to think of it, they had some level of resemblance too. Must be a long lost brother or something.
But now that I'm back home and calmed down and all, I think it was very very dangerous of me to do that. I really could have been involved in an accident. And there were really a number of close calls today, where I swerved too hard on purpose or didn't bother to check my blind spots when there was a car coming. I think it reflects on the fact that when I'm not in my best of moods, I can be totally reckless and mindless. I can do things that are obviously dangerous and wrong, but they won't register that way in my mind. Its like being a psychopath really. And its one of the things about myself that I'm very well aware of, and should learn to control before something bad really happens from it.
I shall not be so reckless while driving again. I usually enjoy driving and driving lessons with some of the nicer instructors, but now I'm feeling quite miffed by the fact that this guy had to appear and change my whole impression of driving. Argh.
You're Dr. Meredith Grey! Always at the heart of it all, it's a good thing you're a real peacemaker, just like your Grey's Anatomy match, Dr. Meredith Grey. Caring and giving, you enjoy taking time out to help other people, even if you've got a few complications of your own, and that's what makes you a real life saver. You've obviously got a lot on your plate, but you still have the skills and the drive to succeed. Keep your chin up, and remember - you're the star!
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You're Hiro Nakamura! Such a dreamer! Even when you're stuck in a rut, you still reach for the stars. Happy-go-lucky and trusting you may be, but silly you're not — you've definitely got a practical side. And no matter what the future holds for you, we know you'll have fun along the way!
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I never thought I'll be Hiro, always thought I was more of a Peter type personality, considering I'm so emo and all. But I'm quite geeky and love day dreaming, which wouldn't be totally out of place for being Hiro as well.
Hahahaha. As if I didn't know I'm an expert liar already. I can make even the most ridiculous lie seem real. (as most of my old friends would know, or *cough* still don't know.) Seriously. Its only a matter of whether I want to or not. And to be honest, I lie all the time. And most of the time, I can get away with it, without anyone suspecting me at all. Heck, half the things I have ever said or sometimes written are all either grossly exaggerated or really just lies. Its a gift and an art really (a really useful one at that). And because I'm so good at lying, I'm also very good at detecting lies as well. So you've been warned. Don't lie to me and at the same time, don't blindly believe everything I say. =P
I can't help it really. Geminis are masters of trickery and manipulation. And we pride ourselves in being exactly that. =)
I have mixed feelings about the latest 2 hour special episode of Grey's titled "The Other Side of This Life". I loved the fact that it was two hours, but I hate the fact that majority of the two hours, was devoted to the possible spin-off that was being planned. There were so little scenes of Seattle. Half the time, I kept wondering if my favourite doctors in Seattle Grace were actually still around at all. Instead they kept showing scenes of LA, of strange doctors we hardly even know about. And may I also add that the acting of the LA cast definitely isn't as amazing as the Seattle cast, but of course, that may be attributed to the long time collaboration of the original Seattle people and thus, they already have a certain level of fantastic chemistry with each other. The LA cast's acting, is kinda stiff. But who knows. Maybe if we give the LA people a bit more time they might develop some level of chemistry and then the acting might actually pick up. But of course, that's if the producers actually go ahead with the spin-off.
What I loved about the episode though was that despite being very focused on LA (and not on my favourite doctors in Seattle) it was very Addy-centric. DR.ADDISON FORBES MONTGOMERY is so classy, sexy and hot. I'm in love with her, her style, her wit, and oh god, her hair. I want to run my fingers through it... gosh. So so so so SO so SO soft, silky and hot. Plus she is so funny. And cool. I love the fact that the episode just had so many scenes of her, doing her thing, being the kind of gal that she is. Intelligent, focused, emotional, and sometimes ditzy. I'll feel so damn sad if she really leaves Seattle Grace. There'll be a gap there that just can't be filled.
I loved the whole idea of Cristina being forced into the whole wedding package thing, and how she actually wants to go through with it for Burke's sake. Which goes to show how much she has changed as a person (which is what Dr. Colin Marlow said in the previous episode or two)from someone who would never compromise her personality in a relationship, to someone who is now willing to do anything to make her other half happy. She has grown! She has changed for the better. She's becoming less robotic definitely. And it adds a certain factor of reality to it, because people do change when they are growing up. (pity the wedding gown scene wasn't as hilarious as the photos of them actually shooting it. haha.)
I love the fact that Alex is finally getting some back story and focus here. I listened to the official podcast on Grey's and they said that Alex is by far the least explored character in Grey's. And that's why people love him, because he adds that whole mysterious factor to the show. We do know a little about his childhood, growing up with an abusive dad, learning wrestling to protect his mom from his dad... we know he is an outward jerk-ass with an inner, softer side in him. But his story is obviously the least explored. And I'm glad that he is finally really becoming someone in the show. I love the fact that he is bonding so well with Meredith and Izzie now. I dunno, I just loved that scene. And from what Eva said, something must have happened to Alex that made him the person that he is today, someone who actively shuns anyone who has feelings for him, and he for her. (and the way Alex responded, just serves to show that he has lots of secrets yet undiscovered)
I hated the fact that Meredith's stepmom died. I mean, why are the producers so mean to Mer? She has like, how many people dying around her, and to make her dad slap her because she had to tell him the news? Thatcher is an idiot. But I actually felt that that scene was very well shot, very powerful, emotional scene, with solid acting. But still, Mer doesn't deserves so much pain. She is dark and twisty, yes but lighten up the horrors please?
And Izzie and George? Someone stab them with a ten-blade or use a surgical drill to puncture their stupid brains. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE! O'Malley, stop being such a indecisive jerk to Callie, and Stevens, stop being a vixen trying to steal a married man. SERIOUSLY. How can they actually think what they are doing is RIGHT? It is so horribly wrong. So so so immoral and despicable. And yet they are going about as if they have the right to do this. To keep doing this. THEY KISSED IN AN ELEVATOR. The elevator cord should have snapped and sent them plummeting to their doom. ARGH.
Oh speaking of elevators, I love the whole concept of the talking elevator god that Addison thinks she encounters. But I was kinda hoping that the whole talking elevator was really a figment of her imagination though. The idea that it was really a security guard speaking to her just isn't as fascinating as the whole 'I think I'm insane' thing.
Two more episodes before season 3 ends... I'm feeling kinda sad, but at the same time , I can hardly wait!
Every now and then, its time to pause and take stock of everything that has happened and will happen. Every now and then, its time to face the darkness within our hearts, and embrace it. Maybe its the thrill of it. Maybe its the solitude it brings. Or maybe its all part of creating a show for the rest of the world to see and decipher, a kind of sick, twisted Truman Show if you would. But let's face it: being the villain, is utterly addictive and fun. And I'm lovin' it.
Who needs enemies when you have friends? *smirks*
Thanks to yishengo for the recommendation of this amazing song. Its a song to get evil to cause it expresses the hopelessness of situations and human relations. Reminds me of '9 Crimes' by Damien Rice. I can imagine people morphing into their evil forms while listening to this song.
"And I find it kinda funny I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had"
Oh shit! I thought S01E17 - The Company Man, was already the best episode of 'Heroes' ever. But S01E20 - String Theory, just blew everything that I had already established about the series away. What an episode!
I'm feeling quite depressed by it really. Haha! Everyone is either dead, evil, or ambiguously evil/good. It so so depressing. I was like 'what the f***!' when a certain person turned out to be another person. Hell of a twist. If the world is gonna be what it is going to be, I seriously see no point in living in it. SERIOUSLY.
Anyway, I hope Hiro does manage to go back and make everything right. I can't imagine all the people hooking up and dying. Its just so freaking weird. And depressing. ARGH.
Spiderman 2 was better. (But still a great movie, just abit too long, and not as concise and well cut as movie 2.)
You know, I have a thing for movies. A kind of obsession really, regarding the message behind the whole colorful world of movies. I need the movie to mean something to me, that behind the awe-inspiring special effects, the fast-paced action, the touching storyline, there is a lesson (or even lessons) for us all. So much so, that if I come out of a theatre feeling like I've learnt nothing, my impression of the film just crumbles.
Thankfully, Spidey-3 didn't disappoint me. The darkest of the Spiderman trilogy, its central theme lies on the whole concept of 'Revenge', and how it changes people, their lives, their personalities, and also affects the people around us.
"Uncle Ben wouldn't want us living with revenge in our hearts, it's like a poison. It can take you over and turn us into something ugly." - Aunt May
Revenge is a scary thing. It controls you and really turns you into a monster. Venom is so cool by the way. But still, all that anger and desire for vengeance really isn't good for someone's mind, body and soul. Just look at Peter Parker. Consumed by anger and a desire to avenge his Uncle by killing the Sandman, he turns into some punk-nerd with serious anger management issues, spotting ridiculous eye-shadow and a flopping fringe (I do however like the fringe: it looks so much more natural that his usual combed hair) with nauseating body language. He starts hurting everyone that matters to him - Mary Jane, Harry Osbourne(except Aunt May, which thank god he didn't hurt, or else I would have thrown Boo's burger at the screen), starts becoming more and more ruthless when dealing with his foes and rivals. He becomes a different person. And look at Harry. In his desire for revenge, he becomes a completely different person as well, so much so that when he gets short term retrograde amnesia, he becomes so much happier and carefree, without any excess baggage at all. And then he has to get his memory back and start causing mayhem for our friendly neighbourhood spider. Argh. And of course, we have the ultimate sourpuss of them all, Venom, who just refuses to accept that he did a despicable thing and he shouldn't really blame Peter for outing him. But of course, he gets all embittered and vengeful and starts becoming obsessed with revenge. And of course, ends up becoming a monster with an over-sized tongue, rows and rows of fangs and big white eyes.
So we really should learn to let go of things. Of all the anger and unhappiness that others may have inflicted on us. Or for the matter, all the hurt that you may have inflicted on yourself. Cause seriously, it doesn't really pay to keep harping over things that make you mad, things that make you evil, things that make you lose yourself. There's this poem called 'The Poison Tree' that I remember studying about in lower secondary. I think it fits the whole 'forgive others and forgive yourself' thing, even if it meant forgiving your enemies and not being able to uphold your face or honor or whatever crap you call it. Cause those are just transient objects. But your personality, your life, your heart, your mind - these are about you being you.
"We've all done terrible things to each other, but we have to forgive each other. Or everything we ever were will mean nothing." - Mary Jane Watson
So goodbye Spidey. Its been nice growing up with you. I forgive you for being such a jerk in the third movie, but hey, you pulled through. Til next time, seeya!
Here's a glimpse into a typical post-examination day (Damian style): 30th April 2007 1300: Wakes up 1310: Eats breakfast?lunch?brunch? 1330: Shower 1400: Renews PDL at nearest Post Office 1415: Meets Wei Wen (who is surprise, surprise! there to renew his PDL too)at the Post Office, and together, we bitch about PDCP, Vivas and other insignificant stuff 1430: Walks to Thomsom Plaza 1440: Buys computer game - The Complete Battle of Middle Earth Anthology 1500: Helps a Downs' Syndrome girl cross the overhead bridge (woo-hoo! good karma!) 1530: Goes home 1540: Plonks down into his chair and starts installing his latest game 1550: Starts playing said game and is immediately hooked 1900: Dragged out by mom to go for dinner at some nice little Peranakan Restaurant nearby 2000: Returns home, shower 2030: Is back at in his room attempting to conquer Middle Earth 0330: Sleep
There. And can you blame me for not updating? For weekends, just change all the gaming parts to house hunting and you basically got the gist of my weekend activities. HOUSE HUNTING. Woo-hoo.
Name: voldemort33
XY, 01/06/1987, s'porean typical geminian free-thinker moody & eccentric thinks far too much for his own good med student (be afraid. be very afraid!) demon45_6f@hotmail.com
crazy craves
music (jazz, rock and lounge) day-dreaming drawing & photography animals (sheep!) chocolate and tea! seafood, noodles and soup!
pet peeves
noisy crowds over-possessive, insecure, whiny people two-faced hypocrites housework and homework being called 'rich' rushing to do stuff crying, pesky kids
deepest darkest desires! (aka wishlist!)
to be a doctor (with a heart of gold!) a dog my own condo apartment a driving license and my own four wheel drive my own comic line someone to hug
